everything! I love my boyfriend but sometimes I get so bored.... I feel like I am "trapped" by the way I look, like no one will EVER take me seriously.... I have more than I deserve..... I think I might be an alcoholic, but it's better than some things...... I act like I hate my job but I secretly love it...... I only have 1 true friend........... I try so hard to be "real" but I dont think I even know what that is...... i have been spending more time here than is healthy..... I'm drunk........... I wish I was more............................................................... i lose a little bit of myself everyday
It's not so bad, since i moved out i've done some soul searching and there is nothing left inside me i dont feel a thing, my emotions are based on a series of logic, all i feel now is the drugs.
It seems like you do have intelligence, and you have stunning looks. there may be a dark period in your early 20's, but you will emerge on top eventually as long as you don't listen to hippies. are you restless, thats how i always was, restless and unsatisfied. that has toned down a bit as time has gone on. I recall my early 20's as being chaotic and excessive, and sort of getting a second wind a few years down the road.
Same. It's so hard to focus on what's real anymore. When I do, I all of a sudden forget what the fuck i was thinking of, or I can't get into a deep thought. "So I'm gon' sit here and just roll mah drugs"
make sure you are the one in control of your drinking... keep it in check because excessive partying is one way to kill your good looks.
I get bored easy too. I know what you mean. I know what you mean about your relationship too. I have a hard time being in long ones and they turn me into somone I don't like. Sometimes I feel like I am incapable of finding somone because I don't think I have ever been in love and it saddens me, but sometimes I just don't care because I am so selfish I think I could easily go through life just dating man after man until I become apathetic towards them. When you figure it out let me know how. By the way I love your boobs and am a bit jealous of your tan. hugs
