i do lsd about every weekend and well i've usually been able to cope with things but i've really been losing it recently. i've decided that i have to write about my point of view. in short here's my blog... http://by49th.blogspot.com/
I read your blog... I definitely know where you're coming from. You are "losing it" in a way, so be careful, but you're also becoming more aware, which is a good thing. I'd ease up on the tripping for a while and let some of this stuff sink in.
I have kind of the same point of view as your blog. Only i'm less aware to it, because for me it's hard to really grasp anything. Most of the time. I've never done acid. I really want to though. Also you do need to lay off acid for a while. The end of your blog makes it sound like you're going to commit suicide. I live in Florida too. Milton Florida. Florida sucks.
Three replies, three people advising you to chill out on the acid - not that acid is bad, or that acid is doing this to you, or even that the amount of acid you've taken up to now is bad... it's just that, you're treading on thin ice, and you need to get some of this stuff straightened out before you worry about tripping.
I meant to say also that while acid is great for introspection, self-exploration, psychological reshuffling, etc., you don't want to beat yourself up over this stuff... it really is best to trip in at least a somewhat positive state of mind, and it seems like that isn't where you are right now. I'm sure there are many people on these boards, including me, who would talk to you about some of the issues with your family, etc., if you wanted.
don't have time to read your blog yet- I'll get round to it but what I can say is this- Tripping every week isn't always a good idea. When I was your age I took everyting I could get my hands on- Acid was around but fortunately not common enough to take it every weekend- now I'm older and wiser I like to take a strong trip twice a year or so. This I'll probably do till the day I die. "Mum- whats grandpa doing in the garden?"
I don't think your losing it at all AHN I just think you've got a realistic-cut-the-bullshit attitude, it'll get you further in life than being Mr Happy or Mr Helpful, you know what I mean? Regarding Acid, use it until you notice your mind enough then leave contented and don't try and relive the glory days.
I see what you're saying, and it does suck. What can we do to change it? we're powerless. But your trips determine your world view, well change it, and from my trip, I realized that we're not really all alone - we could be all living as one, caring for one another and just enjoying life - thats what my trip showed me - in the 60's hippies were these types of people who had good acid trips and came together... I wish I lived then... there are so many less people like that - good, true, honest, pure of heart people. I know I am one. I suppose acid made me realize that and put me in touch with that side of myself. Well I would try to get out, and meet some good people - find some true hippies, and you'll know that there are truly good people in the world - not many anymore, but it's hope for me. I don't know what to do about it. It sucks. I can't relate to many people. There is hope in the youth... I have one idea to make it better... well if only a lot more people got "enlightened" and had good trips, the world would be a better place... try to change your view and have a positive outlook before you trip again... remember, there is hope. peace
hey bro, taking acid is an amazing, life altering experience. it can and should completely change the way you view reality and your relationship to the world, but don't do so much that it becomes your reality. it should be a filter for your mind, not a constant state. life is tough man, there are a lot of horrible people out there and the world can be an ugly and brutal place, but there is no light without dark, it can be as beautiful as it is disparaging. don't give up
