for a long time now i just was confused during school i have fantasies about sex with a women and fantasys about sex with a man every once in a while. but sometimes the male fantasys stay for a hour but i already had a girlfriend that moved i was confused and im sometimes exited by either genders every time its a man i just keep thinking to myself that a random erection happends no matter what you think of during puberty. before i mostly had fantasies about women and around now im starting to think about women more i dont know if before was just a phase or something. i dont know if im straight bi or gay. well right now i dont act gay in any way and i might have a crush on one of my best girl//friends but the problem is i still sometimes get aroused around guys. to add to this i just can not stop thinking if i find out im gay or bi which i would accept pretty soon probably i would start acting mterosexual plus i live in a place where being caucasion is being a minority i mean only like 15 % of the kids in my school are caucasion and most kids in my school use gay as an insult and a lot of kids mostly the rap jockys are homophobic. and about coming out of the closet my dad and mom said they would love me the same but im afraid my current life at home would change and im confortable with the present life i have.what do any of you think i should do
You'll simply find out as you get older and mature, it could just be hormones playing on subconscious thoughts. Don't worry about it you have your whole adolesence period to make sense of your feelings, It's definatly not an over night thing. Just anylise your self carfully and honestly and be prepared to accept whoyou are whether you're gay bi or straight. And you odn't have to act differently just because of you sexuality, why do people think this? It's not an obligation and it's not healthy either, just because your gay doesn't mean you have to dress differently or talk with a high voice with a lisp (which is just plain annoying and gives me an urge to uppercut the said person through the roof) nor do you have you start bodybuilding and go to gay bars to find 'real men' (not far removed from gorillas, a primary member of the ape family). And what is all this crap about a 'gay lifestyle'? I seriously don't get the difference of my life before and after I discovered I like guys, nor do I understand what defines a 'gay lifestyle'. If it's just the fact you are attracted to guys then that's just yet another moronic attempt of catagorization in society. What about 'straight acting' guys, do they lead a 'gay lifestyle'? What does it mean to 'lead a gay lifestyle'?
to tell you the truth your right i will not act diffrent and the gay gym thing i thought about it and even with my hormones playing with me i wouldnt get attracted to one of those gorillas if i was threatend
Just take things at your own pace, were here if you need advice. (Were people threatened by my rant or do they simply not care for sombody who's looking for help?)
I haven't been around for more than five minutes in the past few days. No offense here! To the OPer... Take your time... and like the other poster said, don't feel you need to live a certain way, or tell anyone until you're ready. There's nothing WRONG with being gay, bi, or straight, or with keeping the info private while you sort your thoughts out.
