an atheist.... after the death of my brtoher who went thru 20 mins of life of barley being able to breathe and then the miscarrige of my nephew... if there is a god fuck him\her\whatever. fuck god. I wrote a poem called ugh... and the end of it is "god is the punchline and we are the faint cricket in the backround" that is how i feel right now.... I am utterley depressed and have no booze. I went for a month of some heavy drinking but then just stopped at a dead end. I think I have become emotionally numb.
Im with you, this year i have quit believing in god. had 1 family member die from cancer and another who is dying from it right now ( they are probbly going to have to pull the plug this week some time ). Also had a friend die in a car accident. So i no longer believe in him and if he is real in the slim chance hes a peice of shit.
If there is a god I believe he loathes us...after years of trying different ways of us believing in him he just said fuck it...there is no use. so if there was a god (doubtful) he is long gone
We live to die... In my opinion, death is the end of the suffering we ALL experience. There is life afterward, you know....death is not a bad thing. And when bad things happen to us...it makes us appreciate the good things. It has nothing to do with God (whether or not he does exist) because we all have free will and control our own lives....
Sorry no offence but none of the bad things that have happen lately have made me " appreciate the good things ". So mentally fuck up in the last year only thing thats keeping me from going compleatly insane is drugs and booze.
Someday you will look back and be thankful that you experienced those things. They will make you who you are and who you have become. You are choosing to be "mentally fucked up"...certainly drugs and booze aren't helping out any. Maybe in the short term, but definitely not in the long term.
Sorry but how am i choosing to be mentally fucked up ?, I dont know any one who could have 3 people that they are really close to die with in a few months of each other and not be messed up mentally.
By drinking and doing drugs you are using it as an escape and not dealing with those deaths on your own...sober. This is going to create turmoil in your life and keep you from healing...in turn, it continues the suffering. I've had so many people in my life die...and you can choose to roll over and die...or you can choose to live, learn, remember, and cherish those times...and look forward to meeting them again in the next life. It's your choice.
Those that are unable to come to terms with death need to seriously re-evaluate their personal philosophy on life. Death comes to us all at one point or another and while that certainly scares me sometimes, I have definitely come to terms with the fact that it will happen and there's nothing I can do to change that. It's only a matter of time, so until then I'm going to grab life by the throat and never let go. I recommend you do the same. Blaming the natural course of things on some unknown entity is simply a poor excuse to escape reality.
death is a part of life or whatever its just life coming full circle. its like inevitable. but as for god, ive always been athiest its just the way i was raised. i never been to church a day in my life. it dont mean i dont got morals. you have to move on, really. there are way worse things that could be happening to you.
While i realise this is a sensitive subject, i suppose theres no other way to say it... Firstly i feel for you. The feeling of loss is a terrible thing... But exactly why this has "turned you into an atheist" i have no idea and cannot comprehend... This has nothing to do with "God"(or Gods, or Goddesses, or "higher forces" or "energy"...whatever feels right to you) Death is an inseparable part of life What seems like an end to us most probably isnt so, it could be a transition period And why does God have to be a Protector and a Lover and a Mother all the time? We are highly intelligent beings with souls, who make our own decisions. Perhaps God has nothing to do with protection and is not a mother hen type And a lot of the premature or hideous deaths in this world are aided by our lifestyles...not necessarily the lifestyle of you personally, but of us as one species And so dont blame God for somthing which may not be bad anyway. As someone else said, this is part of your experience, your journey. I know it may not be what you thought it would be, but thats all part of the growing process... And just look around you. At something seemingly simple like a daisy or a rabbit. Cant you see the absolute divine MIRACLE!? Cant you see how complex...how balanced, how perfect? Look deep inside yourSELF and tell me theres no God...because God is in there... Could a group of scientists create a sheep without something that was pre-existing? I truly think the best therapy for you would be in sobriety, as annie said. Youre running away. Accept what has happened and look to the world and its beauty for comfort...however hard that may be Good luck, man. This can be looked at in a different way -Maxi
That doesn't sound like the best reason to become an athiest. If you decide to become an athiest, it should be after a lot of deep thinking about what you believe and why you believe what you believe; not just because you're angry at a God that may or may not exist. Sorry about your brother and your nephew, but maybe you should really think about how you feel and what you think and truely believe about the existance or the non-existance of whatever God you believe does or doesn't exist.
Not a gyotdayum thing. You don't have to go to church to be a good christian. I certainly am not a GOOD christian, but I am a christian, nonetheless......well, sorta.
Youre right, church has nothing to do with God. But why do you have to be Christian to believe in God? Sorry, you seemed to make the link automatically there when it really shouldnt have been made
