I had a dream I died before I got to go to massage therapy school. I don't know how I died, but it was painless, I suppose. I was really disappointed I didn't get to go to massage therapy school. I was looking forward to it and I didn't understand why I was meant to live if I didn't do much in society. Then suddenly, I was in spirit form and I was crossing both the physical realm and "Heaven, " which in itself wasn't like the Christians explain it, it was just was more relaxing. There was just a small separation of consciousness, a veil, that made Heaven and Earth separate. God was there in Heaven, but he was just as much there as he is here. God was still within our reach if we reached. We still had jobs in Heaven, just like here, except things felt different. There was more purpose and it felt more organized. I had a lot of odd images within my head between crossing Heaven and Earth. It was almost as if when I was going towards Heaven I was falling into some sort of city with a lot of people, all focused. I eventually kept coming back to the earthy realm. I would come back in spirit form and I'd converse with my friend, Caitlin, and my family. I was the first to tell them I was dead. They could hear me plain as day. I really didn't mind too much that I had died. I did, however, get kind of worried because I wondered how healthy it would be if I kept coming back from Heaven to here. It would hurt my family members. I figured I'd eventually not come back. Heaven was interesting. What is your concept of heaven? As odd as it sounds, I believe the feelings that encompassed in my dream are similar feelings that will happen when death happens for myself.
once I dreamed I was in heaven, there was a golden city that panned out past the horizon, and there were people.
my heavin is just complete calmness of not having to worry about anything because no one robbs anyone else of their calmness. that's what makes it heavin. lots of forrests and gardens and green. no streets, gold or otherwise and none of that cloying sacrine kind of crap or ostentation either. just gratifying and cool wierdness to endlessly explore and even sub-create just by thinking about and of course not having to sleep or eat. there's tecnology there too, of sorts, but like the rest of it, none of it is about trying to impress anyone, or anything else anyone for that matter either. it's also more of a way station between lives rather then eternity. and people from all over the universe who never expect to, end up there. no gates or judgements or any of that. just how one is makes how one experiences it. no hungry ghosts. just people looking all different ways that don't look like anything you'd ever expect people to look like unless you've thought about all the different ways what evolves into people could happen on all the different billions of worlds on which they do. =^^= .../\...
themnax, yes ... calmness is heavenly. And maybe all we are doing here is to learn to be calm inside, and Be heaven ... without being distracted by this world's noisiness (and not add to it either ) Until we allow it, there is no distraction ... no gates ... no judgement (and no experience of it). So maybe we create heaven right here anyway, no matter where we go later. But experiencing the contradictions does not make it less. Have a good day
