HELP, please idk whats going on:(

waz up guyz, last year i was soooo happy and energetic...full of life, and way mroe social with people from school...it was easier for people to "like" me and my freinds still do, but i mean idk thigs have changed big time for me and it sucks aSSS! after i did shrooms (once) idk if thats the reason..but i lost this...im like tierd, and zone out a lot i did it last winter and idk if thats the reson why, or maybe the weed, i smoked once a week for 3 weeks now....my sence of humor isnt as good as it used to b , i used to sence the funniest things to say at perfect times, but its not like that anymore....plus idk, i feel like i became a wierdo, and that im just a reallllly wierd person that everybody always looks at and trys to judge, even thouh im not necessirly that person. im genrally a nice guy....and as soon as i leave school, im normal again, i could do everything like i used to. idk whats wrong with me!! its my senior year im suppost to have fun and enjoy it, but i find myself bein wierd LOL

idk what it is just tell me what u think thanks

 

I think you are finally starting to see the lie that is the modern society. Once you understand that it is all a farce (because you have opened yourself to a new perception) you can't just go back to the old ways of life. That includes forms of social interaction that appear to be normal, but that is only because everyone is so messed up on living the lie they can't tell that they are living under unnatural laws and 'societal norms'. Forget the peons, they well inevitably continue on in blissful ignorance until their eventual awakening or death. Focus on yourself and your existence, work directly on bettering your life and get far away from their perversion of reality. You seems lethargic when you are no longer interested on wasting your energy on their idea of normal life. This illusion will most likely come crashing down in the not too distant future, so prepare yourself for being self sufficient. You won't be able to rely on the social-economic elite to save you from the deserted masses.

IMHO, of course.

 

I agree with Ironcore but still try to laugh once in a while, watch some commedy movies or tv, laugh, smile, and love. Society has everything wrong and you should be happy that you are not part of its trap. also, you saw Ganesh when you tripped?

 

guirarpeace....no i didint see GANESH i saw an elephant with a bunch of colors surrounding it, dressed in expensive lookin material and julez. say im crazy but thats what i saw! LOL it was nice it was very clean and smooth lookin it waz sooooo refreshing.

plus i do laghf and smile a lot, i used to b very popular last year, and i cant just go and do what i did last ur the same way....it soooo different for me now,, like clicks have changed, idk...i alwayz try to stay positive and happy so thats good

 

Sounds like depression. Go talk to a professional. Or maybe you should stop doing drugs all together, AND go talk to a professional.

 

i barrely do any drugs, i used to smoke once every two weeks, weed....and i did shrooms once last winter, and b4 this year i smoked weed once every month or so..
its really not serious drug use at all....btw i feel much better with myself now, so for now im good, if the problem comes back i might get some help, thanks salmon

peace out guyz

 

I know this might sound a little too simple, but just do something you like/used to like to do. I've been plagued with depression throughout my life, and it almost always helps to just sit and play guitar or read something about art or draw. Sometimes i have to force myself to get out of bed and go get the guitar/book/sketchbook, but it's so worth it. good luck!

 

Cool man, glad to hear it. If you ever have those type feelings for a long period of time then it's all about having someone to talk to. Not a friend or family but someone who is trained to listen. Regardless, glad to hear thing are well. Personally I would avoid hallucinogenics and just stick to the occasional smoking in the future. Have a good holiday season. :grouphug:

 

thanks for all ur help guyz, happy holidays, u guyz are awesome!

yea i like to draw, yesturday i drew hendrix, the pic when he smokin a cig, and he has a hand in his mouth. it came out AMAZINGGG 4real..

 

awesome! you should post it up in the art forum. i just got a scanner for christmas, so some of mine may be up soon.

 

I think you shoul ask yourself what is the real reason for your depression. And what would you like to change in your life. That's what I did