I'm recovering from bulimia(or at least trying to...only purging 1-2 times a day) ...but I'm still abusing diuretics and laxatives...and I know I'm not drinking as much water as I should...only like 30 oz of water a day...I'm trying to drink more but I can't seem to force myself to.... But my lips are really feeling the effects...they're cracking and bleeding...I'm putting lip balm on like every 30 minutes or so but it isn't helping. Is there a lip balm out there that might actually help? Is there anything I can do to help make myself drink more water? I just bought crystal light to hopefully at least make the water taste better....I hate water LOL I'm never thirsty either...I don't know why...but I'm not...A lot of the time I completely forget to drink...until like 9 at night...
You need to get therapy. You have no idea what you are opening your body up to-glandular infections, sezuires...don't you constatly feel sick? With the laxatives if you take them long enough you won't be able to go on your own later in life-I'm not kidding and think how fat being constipated for weeks will make you feel. consuming water isn't really your problem. And you can't throw up in moderation pretty soon your body will just make you vomit on your own everytime you eat...it's pretty gross and I'm not talking like 10 years from now I am talking maybe months from now. good luck to you. If you ever want to talk let me know
I'm doing a lot better lately...I was purging 10-15 times a day...so once or twice is really good for me. I've been bulimic for over 10 years now...so I know the effects...I feel like shit constantly...I have indigestion and a sore throat all the time...and I get headaches...and I'm always dizzy... I am in therapy and on meds and everything...but we don't really talk about my eating disorder...they're more concerned with my childhood and stuff...in therapy we're actually doing a workbook, "The Courage to Heal" its for people who have lived through childhood sexual abuse...I've been able to open up to my therapist a lot since I started doing the workbook...so thats good, I think.
I have that workbook as well. I am not diligent enough to keep up with journaling in it though ): I wish I was I just got so sick that I stopped all of a sudden one day and never did it again. I was on effexor for it for a couple of months until I kicked the urge completley. Now I am on Wellbutrin, which makes me at high risk for a relapse but I haven't had one. I just feel so healthy, sexy and full of life now that I never wanna go down that road again. I just had to see past myself- my outer self ,not just my body, but the crap and try to reach my soul and finally realized how important it was to nuture it and really give the finger to everything and everyone who did not add to that and let it all go.
LOL god are we twins? I just went off Effexor. I was taking a Effexor, Wellbutrin and Geodon combo...but about 3 weeks ago I decided to go off the Effexor b/c of sexual side effects...I'm gonna give it 3 months and if they don't go away...I think it might be my birth control. I'm not telling my doctor though incase I want to go back on it...it did help my anxiety a lot...I'm really anxious right now...so I'll probably end up going back on the Effexor... I was taking 225 mg of Effexor and 150 mg of Wellbutrin and Geodon 160 mg at night and 80 in the morning.
I'm on 300mg of welbutrin now and .5 of xanax a day. The welbutrin really took my appetite away so much so that I smoke pot at night so I can get the munchies and eat dinner, drink some juice and then eat some cereal and take vitamins before I go to bed. But during the day I am so put off by food. I'll try to eat like a cliff bar on the way to class and it's often naseating. It's like the only thing I dig without toking it up is yogurt and coffee. And I can't smoke pot all day ya know? The effexor gave me sexual side effects too and when I went off of it I was a nymph but the reasaon I went off of it was that I just didn't care about a thing and I couldn't empathize with people. I would just go out and get fucked up everynight. I was only on 75 mg too. They think it's because I have adhd it affected me weird. Have you tried xanax or valium instead of effexor? It was only when I started taking benzodiazapines I finally felt in control of my anxiety. If I have a bad day I can take a few xanax and if my day is good I usually forget to take them because it's not like effexor where you have to take them everyday...sorry I smoked the pot I'm rembeling...and eating a cookie
my doctor won't give me anything good I asked for ativan cuz I can't sleep b/c I'm so scared about having nightmares...but he won't give it to me I want my Wellbutrin increased to 300...It decreased my appitite at first...but now it doesnt at all...I'm starving constantly!
change doctors? ativan is good, it's not as addictive as the rest of benzos either. If your having bad nightmares I would really reccomend a tiny tiny dose of seroquil before bed. It's fab...just be prepared to need 9 hours of sleep. but you will not have any nightmares at all.
I used to take Seroquel like last year...gained a ton of weight on it...don't want to take that again hehe
Hi Dollparts, my name is Kesa AKA Pixie & I'm the owner of Pixique= www.pixiqueboutique.com my site is new so it's not really up yet but you might want to add it for future reference. I used to have the eating disorder to so I know how it is. I have a new lip balm coming out soon, for $2.50. It's a natural balm made with coconut oil, shea butter, olive oil and essential antioxidant Vitamins A & E. Honestly, you should be taking other vitamins a & e, omega 3, ect. Try pedialite (sp?) as well. If you have to try the popsicles. I know it's hard to drink the water, I had the same issue. But the pedialite really does help. Good luck, and if you're interested or have any questions about eating disorders or whatever feel free to email me.. finnishbutterfly@hotmail.com
I have been reading the posts in this thread and I am picking up so much pain here. Sisters, learn to love yourselves. I hear that you all want to get out of this cycle, it is just finding a way. I also know that you can't generalize here.We are all so different. What works for one doesn't work for another. I work (Complementary Therapies) with all sorts of self esteem issues from mental health to eating disorders. Perhaps some of you will find that this is like a support group on line. Re the water; popsicles tend to be full of chemicals and so this is not going to help the hydration issue. However, how about making your own just with water? Sending you all an abundance of energy
the popsicles I was talkin about were actually for hydration for people with like the flu and everything, but they actually work very well in the eating disorder issue
