Who happens to be close friend of my own boyfriend.... For some time now, I have been secretly pining away for someone unattainable. Someone with a girlfriend and children. The issue is that.... I've had him before. During a period when him and his girl went through a rough patch, I was his jump off. The worst part is that, his girl and I have slowly began to form a sort of bond....some sense of companionship. A mere few days ago, she was made aware of what him and I partook in upon her absence. However, through quick thinking, we were both able to convince her that is was merely a drunken mistake on both of our parts... swearing (with crossed fingers) that it was merely oral pleasure...knowing full well it was much more. He admitted to my own boyfriend (this was before him and I began dating) that, though he knew it was wrong, he had no regrets. In fact, he even complimented my....er.... ahem, techniques and approach. Whenever he is around, I must mask my feeling for him, hiding them so that they are buried deep within the confines of my heart. I know the desire is futile, However, I can not help but picture a future with him... marriage, babies, grandchildren on a front porch..... When I look at him, I see every ex boyfriend that I've ever wanted to positively influence. He is a pretty bad boy (with a heart of gold). The type that is destined to cause my undeniable demise. His girlfriend, well, she is a true Ice Queen. Her greatest pleasure is causing him sorrow. She lives to insult him and bring about tears. I could pick up the pieces... if only he'd let me. However, she has complete control over his mind, body and soul and no one's advice or support will ever remove her from his life, regardless of how much she has and continues to destroy it. So, I sit back from the sidelines and watch their turbulence....daydreaming of how I could rescue this lost soul from his Medusa and be a beacon of light in his world of darkness....
I agree, move on quick. This doesn't sound like the "on the front porch with the grandkids" type of guy. Consider yourself lucky that you haven't been pulled into it further and quit hanging around them.
if he'd lie to his wife, what makes you think he'd be honest with you if you two ever got together? and whether you can get together or not, whyare you still will your b/f if u are in love with another?
