*deep breath* the mail came

well shit we're gonna start with A because he claims he is directly paying for our education. We should also send the bills to Rush and Chris Wallace.

While I am at it I am going to hault my search for a part-time job and make myself seem significantly incapapable and incompeent and attempt to get some medi-cal...ya know really play up my role as a worthless student.

 

you cant be more worthless than i am though, i am the worst of the worthless. i got it down to a science here, i even got the loan companies confused

 

mmm I get unemplyoment though...I am officially living off of the goverments money while trying to pass a class for the fifth time...I think i am in fact more worthless

 

i could have gotten unemployment if i wanted to :tongue:....but ya got me there... damnit

 

you shoulda gone for the unemployment I get 1,600 a month and claimed 0 the whole past year so I do not elect to have taxes taken out. I think it's like 40 percent of whatever you made int he highest quater of your previous year. I paid into it for all these years. It's an insurance that emplyees pay into that is run by the goverment. I didn't even have to file my company did it for me since it was a lay off.

I am looking for a part-time teaching or tutoring job though at a private company or school. I have cobra for the next 18 months so I can finally just work part-time. I can't wait o go back to work after I finish Spanish in Dec I am sooooooo partied out and bored now.

 

i wouldn't have gotten much - i like it much better this way

its much simpler now. if i had went for unemployment, i wouldn't have been able to get my economic hardship qualification for my loans.

 

You're 16, aren't you?

Reads like it...

 

Here's the deal - let's have this conversation when you've paid as much in taxes - either personal or corporate as I have.
Then and only then would the conversation be meaningful. *L*

You and pretty much most of your Life as you've posted here in these Forums
(course there is the everpresent question: Fact or Fiction?)
is a waste of taxpayer/ health insurance industry dollars
of which both affect the vast majority of Folks either in or out of the systems.

Have you forgotten 'perpetual studenthood' are your words?
That's not a waste?

I've carried more than my fair share/ Lived w/o subsidies for more years than you've been breathing.
Most gainfully employed Folks can make similar claims.

So why does my income/ Career concern you?
It's not as though you'll never see a penny of it - you can bet your Life on that. *L*
It's amazing what you do not Know of me - almost as amazing as your fabrications.

Truths
nor the fact I have my addiction under control while yours' still control you
are not Intelligent reasons for pissing matches
yet you still insist.

Get over it...

 

ad hominem attacks are a major faux pau in proper debating circles... kinda like wearing denim on denim

you're not alone in being concerned about paying too many taxes but the problem is the military industry complexities and all the money it spends on dumb ass wars or preparing for dumb ass wars

 

Sorta depends on where you are.
Here, denim on denim is perfectly fine.
Fact is that's usually the way I dress during the cooler months... *s*

Yes the military is a problem but only one of many.
The first step to recovery is to vaporize dc when all the politicians are there.
Course they prolly never all be there at the same time
but it'd still be a good first step on the road to recovery.

Can't say I've ever seen numbers to back this up but
pork barrel politics prolly total a greater expenditure than the miltary...

Remember if it weren't for the military we might be writting German or Japanese or Russian or maybe even Chinese...

 

Thank you Lynsey. I appreciate all that you said.

I think after we move and when the boys are in school full-time I'll see more of an opportunity to strive for something within myself. I told Bill I want to go back to dancing and take a dance class. He fully supports the idea. I also want to take pictures. Both are a form of art so maybe I'll see my potential.

My body will go back to being flexible and lean. I want that badly.

 

I take ballet classes and love it!!!!!!!!! I think that is a great idea. You're pictures are always so beautiful too. I still vote for pottery though just because that's what I want to do....maybe I've seen ghost too many times

 

ok nice to bring up my past pill addiction...very nice and very relevant I might add! Yes all villify me please because I had a love for benzodiazapines...please persacute me here..maybe brand me with a huge A for addict?

None the less I am going to be obtaining my Phd while you remain so bitter over things that are so far in the past that you cannot move ahead. Forget the bitches that screwed you over, make ammends with your children and jump back on that horse and ride it far away from the state you are now in.
As for taxes...you know my past and I do not wish to devulge it on here and you are one of the few people who know the extent of it, whic i had to devalge to you because you live there. Let's just say I have surely paid my share and leave it at that and not get into it.
Stop being angry at me. I am not her. Shit I am not even blonde anymore Truce?

 

There's more than just a current pill addiction.
Pretty safe to say most are aware of it - Hell you continually post of both.

Little Miss Innocent doesn't fit you at all.
Why do you insist on playing the role?

Why do you publicize things that I disclosed to you in confidence w/the reasonable expectation of privacy?
In addition to that, why do you also publicize 'fabrications' (aka lies) attempting to pass them off as Facts?

Seems you expect a similar one way street w/me as you do in Life.
As long as you continue in the manner you have, what's the justification for a truce?

BTW my guess is your freeloading/ wasteful ways aren't playing well w/many here that are busting their arses and just barely, barely keeping their Heads above water.
Maybe, just maybe, one day you'll understand...

 

I was trying to be peaceful-not seek your approval- but we'll just throw that out the window.


I do not have an addiction to pills any longer or alchohol and I never claimed to be ms innocent. I party hard once in awhile but I do not drink nightly. And I do take xanax still, half of one twice a day per my psychiatrists reccomendations, which usually I forget to take. I don't get angry, out of control or mean when I drink and I only drink a couple times a week. I have my demons under control. I do not understand why or how you could wish that I did not. I would never wish addiction on anyone.

I think most on here know my struggles and also know that I have a good heart but have made some bad choices. I think most also know, including you that I have worked many 60 hour weeks for a couple years now.

As for being a freeloader...that is just laughable...everything has it's price, especially family money. I learned that years ago and as you know decided to part with it. Since I can't pay rent I exercise the dogs everyday and my mom has saved money with me not working and hates it that I want to go back to work because her life has been much easier since I was laid off.

I would think with all your struggles and all your demons you would have a little more empathy for other people's. Or at least a humanistic way of presenting your thoughts.

Anywho i am not going to let you bring me down nor will I disclose things you told me in privacy.

I honestly hope for the best for you despite our differences you did help me through a very hard time and I will always be grateful for that. I wish us both the best in life

 

No one is perfect. We all stumble and fall, make mistakes. We can hurt people along the way however if we seek forgiveness shouldn't that account for something?

The past is the past and we can't change it. If someone is trying to move forward and live a better life for themselves it doesn't seem right to knock them down for it. If anything they deserve acknowledgment for trying to better themselves.

This thread was about achieving something some of us can only dream about. (speaking for myself) I wish I had some of the intellegence Lynsey has so I could seek something better for within me.

 

That is one of the nicest things anyone has ever said about me. Thank you. Sometimes with my family's expectations I just feel like such a loser and the fact that my mom has not said one 'I'm proud of you' (to my face) after getting in has made me realize nothing I do academically or career wise will be good enough and that it's time I start appreciatting who she is and realize that nothing is going to satisfy her but that she still loves me regardless and is a wonderful mom if that is her only fault. It still hurts though and you saying what you just said makes me feel really good.

 

lyns, you have no reason to feel like a loser. maybe she doesn't know how to say she's proud of you - i know my parents have never said that to me. academically and career wise, you have your own goals and accomplishments you want - make them good enough for you; put things into persepective for you. she loves you and deep down, i'll bet that she is proud of you even if she hasn't said it. i know i'm proud of you for the steps you've taken, the accomplishments you've had - ever since we first started talking those few years ago...

 

I hear her brag all the time to her friends about me. I know she is proud of me and just can't say it but recently realizing I have to live my life for me has been hard.

I like that you and I are proud and supportive of each other. It rocks, because well we rock

 

*HUGGLES* Lyns my dear you totally kick ass