maybe some day it'll make sense to you

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i have all these reasons why i shouldn't care about you
i hear all these voices that tell me not to
dive into this relation with you

i see that you do not understand,
cos we're not on the same level,
cos you cannot feel this pain,my pain,
you cannot hear my voices,
you cannot feel this sadness
that has overwhelmed me oh so much...

when we are alone,
you are so gentle
and the greatest lover i ever had...
i highly appreciate that
but now it's time for us to part
and i don't want you to be sad
(that's just not enough for me)

you are only lying to yourself
and you can't save me from drowning
and i don't blame you for that,
i can only blame myself…

was hoping,
was expecting,
was waiting,
was dying
for you to see the real me

and you couldn't

and i waited
and waited
and waited
and ignored…

there are many things i cannot tell you
and
i know you will hate me for that

i have all these why's and shouldn'ts inside me
and they refuse to leave
but i'm not goin to tell you
cos you wouldn't believe
(i tried oh so many times,and u just smiled at me)

i'm sad and lonely
and broken hearted
i'm hurt and deserted
and maybe i have deserved

don't come around
you know i cannot push you away
i'm not good with saying goodbye
i'm not strong enough to make the closure…

will always love you
will always think of you
will always carry you inside my heart
will always be there for you
will always remember the moment we connected
and
will forget the things you neglected


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take care,
-marina