*ventures into the karma cafe and takes a beanbag*

thanks dapablo erm yeah i dance freestyle. i did breakdance for a short while when u lived in birmingham. would love to do that again and also samba. i cant keep still once the samba beat starts up. im all-a-shakin lol


hm, biggest animal i ever killed was a big spider last night. usually i dont kill them, infact i dunno i ever have before, i usually trap them in something to put outside/or someone else to put outside but last night it was late and close to me on the floor an the poor thing suffered death by telephone directory :S theres still one somewhere in the house, we been happily livin together for few days but i dont like it when they run round the floor near stuff i might pick up an freak out

 

ive fallen apart tonight for first time in ages...next door heard my cries and came round. how is it that in the last 4-5 years, i fell in love with a girl an dealt with that, i then dealt with fact she was seeing my friend and hadta sort out their rifts and watch them snog an cuddle, then they broke up and she told me that she was transexual and really a man, which with time i dealt with and then we got together...there were bad times and amazingly amazing times, and we broke up and got together and broke up nad got together...then in the last year i spent 11 months fancying a woman in her 50s, my old boss, whose son is older than my ex...i pulled a married (but seperated) man, two of my sisters exs from when she was younger (she was 12 and younger when she dated them) and a friend from work, was offered a threesome which i rejected and then i get over older woman..and all this time deep down still love my ex....who is also now fucked up fancying someone he cant have...which is fucking me up coz i know the feelings he's feeling coz i felt them for my older woman, only i never told him till it was passed...he told me now coz we had a very honest convo, first one since we split a year ago, an he still loves me too, cept we're completely incompatible an want completely different things, an i cant deal with him likin someone else, even tho i have spent last year in same boat...coz i love him too

 

Dear god lady what a crazy web you weave, I can send my compassion, a hug and a prayer for the easement of your heart but most of that blows my mind.

 

Have you ever thought of going on Jerry Springer?
(tasteless joke, sorry)

Have you ever been on TV? Would you like to be?

 

Aww my little Daisy Lou!!! MWAH and HUGE HUGS you way lady!!! MWAH!!!!

xxxxxxxxx

 

aw thanks everyone for your messages. im feelin bit better now. dealing with life again. just had a really bad one last night.

in response to lithiums question: i have been on tv a couple of times, nothing major though. ive done some tv extra work on a welsh show, 'dancing at a gig' type thing, and ive been on midlands today, spinning poi at birmingham arts fest, and i was on tele somewhere in the north west doing poi and stilts at the grand national. id like to do more tv stuff. my friend has been doing abit of tv stuff lately and can be seen tonight on E4 at 10.30 unicycling on russel brands issues programme.

 

If you could be famous, would you? And if so, what for?

 

to my dear flyology...i have just got in from a night out. i almost got the bus home but i couldnt face it and turned to alcohol. tonight i found out my mates mum who i knew coz she shopped where i work quite a bit, committed suicide in august. she talked to me for ages about her life an told me she was suicidal a few months ago. well she did it. she shot herself and then i had a missed call an my fone battery was dead so i borrowed someone i didnt know's fone and called my mum, and my cousin has skin cancer. and all i knew was i needed joe and i couldnt call him coz no battery and he likes someone else, even tho he still loves me i spent alot of tonight in a nightclub toilets gunna speak to him tomorrow tho...

re: pheonix Q - i wouldnt wanna be famous coz of pressure, an past eating troubles...would trigger them again, but as a friend of mine once said, its always nice to be well known!

 

*More hugs* I can't begin to imagine how bad you must be feeling today, but I hope your cousin will be ok, and that you can be there for your friend.

 

hi well amidst the utter shite happening everywhere...one piece of good news...my cousins surgery seems to have removed her cancer!! so thats great news!

also i wrote a letter into work about health & safety in my department and they were jumping to sort it out so had a really positive response to that so work isnt as awful as it was either.

also managing to get back on top of housework and life in general. house is tidy and clean and am cooking again instead of living off takeaway.

just reread through all this and realised i wrote about pulling 2 of my sisters exs and said 12 and younger...that was how old she was when she went out with them...not how old they are - god i hadnt realised how that read!!! shit! lol. hehe. i pulled one of them again on saturday. he moved to spain for the summer but bumped into him on saturday night.

currently have a cold which is crappy. have sneezed more today that in the last year i think. never had a sneezy cold before... however, feelin better for a radox bath.

 

Glad your cousin is ok. Shame about the cold. When you get ill, what do you tend to do to make yourself feel better?

 

well normally i eat garlic every day anyway but ive been slack last few months living off takeaway, so ive been consuming muchous garlic to boost my immune system...also hot water bottles (it goes to work with me and everything) and paracetamol...dont buy flu meds because theyre just an expensive marketing product...their base and active ingredient is just paracetamol which is much cheaper in its simple form. also been eating more veges and nuts for protein

ooh and hot baths...nice hot yummy baths

 

"oooh hot baths"

salts, oils or bubbles ? and do you enjoy company there also ?

 

Greatessential oils for colds: Sandalwood ( a drop) massaged gently into glands on throat and niaouli, peppermint or rosemary - a couple of drops on a tissue and inhale, cupping tissue in your hands. Don't dump the tissue - use it from time to time to inhale and remember not to blow your nose on it!! Oils keep for a while and have other uses so they are an investment. Make sure you get a theraputic quality oil. Peppermint and Lavender in a bath oil dilution ratio help ease congestion and achy muscles.

Grated ginger in boiling water, leave to steep for a couple of minutes and add honey (unless you are vegan) and drink.
Hope you're feeling better soon!!

 

aw thankyou for your advice seabreeze, thats very kind of you!

 

Do vegans really not eat honey? I wouldn't have imagined keeping bees to make honey is particularly cruel?

 

What's the most extreme thing you've ever done?

 

oooo difficult question PP. Im not sure ive done anything very *extreme*. I am rather a sensible person, who plays more by caution than risk. I am also generally for an easy life so am quite happy not doing extreme things hehe. I dont think my extremes are really very extreme at all. I have never jumped from a plane, or deep sea dived. I sent a valentines card to the 50ish year old straight woman i had a crush on at work last year...but thats not exactly extreme, a little daring maybe considering the potential to be found out...which i luckily wasnt...ive walked a high tight wire...but that doesnt really count as extreme. Ive done some crazy double somersaults in gymnastics back in the day, some of which resulted in landing on my head - owch. And as far as ice skating is going im not letting my lack of knowledge of moves prevent me from just trying them, also resulting in pain, but its fun. Hm all in all I dont think Im very extreme at all, except in the emotional sense...in that when Im happy you wont keep me still, Im like a kangaroo on duracell, and if im down ill live in weeks worth of mess. Tho, to everyone I know Im extreme by personality, the one everyone expects to behave silly and do random stupid things which make them laugh.

 

If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you travel to?

 

well the places i would love to see and the places i dare venture are highly dependant on my irrational fear of bugs. if i was fearless i would say latin america, india, australia, new zealand and thailand. but we shall hafta see where i end up if i indeed end up going at all. i have no idea what causes my fear of bugs as i feel that question about to be asked, they just terrify me. see a nice butterfly i find lovely, on a summers day, dancing about my garden, but creepy crawlies and then larger animals terrify me. i was very proud of my achievement in overcoming my complete fear of the daddylonglegs at the last bristol circus festival, though i wouldnt have survived the festival if i had remained fearful, they were out in swarms, in their thousands. oh and once, a woodlouse had baby lice all over my sunbathing mat - oh it was foul. one minute im lying in the sun barely clothed enjoying the weather when i find a stray woodlouse crawling across my tummy, so not 'too' fussed i flick it away when suddenly on my blanket out come all these little clear lice....well i showered and showered and showered and still felt disgusted. yes, bugs really are vile!