Hey there people I am an opera singer...that is I am trained as an opera singer. I don't really do anything with it now. Anyone else go to a conservatory and get so burned out you just pretty much turned your back on it? I do a tiny bit here and there, but nothing serious. I actually HATE performing now. I stillenjoy music, listening, and even rehersing, just lost the whole "Look at me!" thing. I do have recordings I can post if anyone is interested.
while I don't think I'll ever get tired of entertaining (I was born with the whole "look at me!" thing), I do know what you're talking about. I studied classical piano from age 8-20, which included two years of university music classes. I just got really tired of singing other people's songs, so I started writing my own, dropped out of college, and well, the rest of my story is yet to be written. I have a philisophical dissonance with collegiate music study (all of art study for that matter) that I just can't get past.
I remember when I lost the "look at me" thing. I was doing community theater in my home town one summer after college. The show was by no means good. I had done 3 operas the year before in school and had a lot of acting and musical theater training as well. Still, after the crappy ass show, people were coming up to us and telling us how wonderful it was, we were better than broadway, they've never been so impressed....sheep I though....lemmings.... I think this is why I prefer rehersal to performance. The art of honeing and getting real valid feedback and criticism from your peers is far more valuable to me that the adoration of an ignorant public. snobbery...perhaps
no, I feel you. The Jam is way more fulfilling to me, as a musician, then any praise from clamoring neanderthals. I know when I play well and I know when I play shit. The thing is, most people listening can't tell the difference. This is not a knock on the people that come hear me play. I know that most of them are sincere. And I know that in general, people vibe off of you more than what notes you play or sing. The minority are just ball-lickers though. like you play at a coffee shop and some guy comes up to telling you you need to play at this club or that and you need to make an album right now and blah blah blah. bullshit dude, I wrote that song last week. But I digress. What I'm saying is that when you are in a jam space (or rehearsal in your case) and there is no one around you can really let your mind drift into the astral vibratory levels of music and that feeling cannot be recreated by any drug. It's heady shit and honestly that's what I live for. I couldn't find that feeling in my college music classes and ensembles. And really, are you telling me I need a piece of paper that says I'm a good musician to prove my worth? Thanks, but you can have your degree. Miles spent less than a year at Juliard before he met Bird and that's where he got his education. blowing with the best. He couldn't find what he was looking for at arguably the best music school in america. I'm no miles, obviously, but I smell the signs.
