When I was 18 I had made a stupid half assed suicide ....contempation, lets say.But is was enough to need medical attention. After I sought medical attention, on my own fucking accord mind you, the fucks locked me up. I told them I didn't want to die but would rather die than work all day supporting the demise of the planet in mans money world. The fucks made me go to the state hospital on my own accord,or they where going to have me commited for aleast one year! So I went, acctually thinking I was going to get to talk to someone, therapy sessions, something.Well after 2 weeks I asked to talk to my doctor. Got to see him in no time, 15 mins tops. I was impressed thiking oh here we go he just forgot about me! The fucker looks at me and says "So what can I do for you" I laughed and said "Exaclty, what can you do for me",Mother fucker says, "What do you suggest." I said "Let me go!", he says "Sorry cant do that" Well I start fucking crying and getting real pissed,and the goon squad escorted me back to my room.They put me on high alert and moved my bed right outside the nurses station. Then uped my meds to doseages recomended for extreme phsycotics.I couldn't even take a shit without the fuckers following me to the shitter! So there I was sitting in a room full of REALLY crazy fucking people.For about 2 weeks this went on. Then one day the nurses station said I have a phone call.It was my mom ,the fuckers actually sent her a bill! Thats the only way she new I was there. Well she set up a trasfer for me to go to the sate hospital where she lived.Needless to say I lied though my fucking teeth and they let me walk. In my mothers care of course with plenty of meds though.I never ever took them! Now let's shoot forward, now I'm 32,I just got fired from a job I've had 10 years,escorted off the property by police.I started a bunch of shit thoughout the building. The wrongs that should be corrected type or thing and wouldn't let go.I didnt do anything to have the police called,I showed up for a schedeuled meeting with the owner. He met me at the front door and all of a sudden cops everywhere! Cops took my keys and escorted me off. Well being quite pissed to say the least, I went home and kinda got the police called on me for disturbing the peace.Well all I can say is the little fucking piggies picked the wrong fucking day ,and the wrong fucking dude to get cute! I was kind enough to let them hand cuff me to each of them . Had one on each arm type of thing,them I said "You Ready" ,LOL ,I was throwing them little fuckers around like rag dolls.The neighbours had to call for backup for em!I don't know what they were thinking, but boys that was dumb! LOL Well after some help arrived I lost conscienceness some how. The 3 egg sized knots on the back of the noggin may have had something to do with that! Well I pretty much don't remember much until I was in county and someones saying 75 dollors and you can go home.I said really, fuck you! Well then they said they needed a next of kin and ph#.I give them my sisters number.So they call her and say bring your brother 75 bucks to get him out on a disturbing the peace charge. I snapped and started screaming, "Don't you bring these fuckers a fucking dime!". Well lets just say I never let up.For two days I did ever thing in my power to make them fucks earn there money. Well they sent me to the state hospital.There I told them the story of what happened at work. I told them the cops where looking for a fight, so I gave em one,even called the fucking police station,and the F.B.I.,to report the nuggies on my noggin, from the nut house! I told them adout the shit I went though at 18. How I still am constantly searching for a way out of this money trap.I didn't lie about anything! They asked me if I thought I belonged there and sturnly aswered, "Fuck no I'm not mental!". So i signed a request for release and after taking the brain pick test ,and not causing any trouble I was released, No meds no linkage or follow ups what so ever! So know I'm 44, single dad with full costody of two great kids! A full happy life! No money, no old lady,no job,still no meds, and I'm happy as hell! So am I crazy or not! 26 years ago I was psychotic mind you, 200mg. Mellarill 150mg. Sinaquan,3 or 4 times a day! But 12 years ago I wasn't! Today I've enduered more pain and hardship than I ever could of imagined at 18 and I wake everday with a smile on my face! Point is don't ever let anyone tell you your are crazy and put you on meds! I could have easly spent the last 26 years a zomie! Instead I chose to fight and to live!
What would you do if one of your kids was suicidal, and was actively seeking to end their life? Or, what would you do if they were schizophrenic, and had to either be medicated or be homeless (unless you're in a position to take care of them 24/7)?
Hey I'm not saying there isn't any need for mental health and meds and that some people don't need them. I spent enough time in there to know some people are bat shit crazy. I was manic depressive, homless and suicidal for many years and worked out my own problems.Without meds!Or therapy!
Cool. Meds are definitely frowned upon enough 'round here, which I understand why, but some people need them. Badly. Especially around here. I'm just against telling anybody that they shouldn't try something to help themselves, barring the obvious bad idea, of course (the smoking crack to loose weight kinda deal). Glad you were able to manage your demons... that's a commendable thing to achieve.
Can hospitals keep you there without your will? I didn't know that :s I had a pretty lame attempt at suicide last year and they just sent me to a psycho and had a few sessions with her and i just lied and she didn't notice and that was that. Clever people..
Absolutely! My mom was frequently held against her will in the hospital and was sometimes jailed too. But she really did need to take meds because she had frequent hallucinations and dellusions everyday... =(
Most meds do turn people into zombie's. I used to work with hard to deal with kids and they were just put on meds to passify them into submission. But TV and the news do the same thing. The more zombie's the more passive the gen. pop. is and the easier it is to get away with things. This is what I see anyhow. Colorfull life story youve got there, I enjoyed reading it. Excellent trick with the cops, Im sure they will think twice before handcuffing themself's to someone. Always keep them on their toes.
