its about a guy who I have, over the years, developed intensely strong feelings for. very spontaneous and unedited When did you first worm your way into my mind? I might've smiled at you that day (in those select days we were thrown together) That! - might've changed everything. But I remained cold in face as I stood by my machine: What emotions might I have felt as you worked away in yours? I might've let you know. In our human form we are consistently harassed By who? By Fullness and her elusive, spectral face? It dies upon entering our flesh, and there we've never left before, and her skin never touches mine and my skin can never reach out to his Despite where we sit, two human, human forms in blackness. He dangles from a rope, staring at me in my shattered bleeding costume Shaking his head in disgust, apalled, and for once I cannot dig out any words to interpret and to flatter. We share a brief moment together in silence, Does he hesitate? And then a tugging from far down the line reminds him of wives, and babies, and hunts of The Bird and handsomeness, paired with all the pretty glitter, together in curves and spheres. Of balance, yin and yang, the True Godly Way, and of approving Grandma eyes, and never draining words to use behind a fence of white and further through a door of red. And he slowly glides down the rope, surpassing my time and age leaving me alone, shaking in the dark.
