A Geek's Realtime LSA Log (Long) from 1999

Log of LSA experience in late 1999 with 130 Heavenly Blue Morning Glory
seeds, alone in my apartment on a Friday night. Edited out verbosity and
replaced personal expressions and allusions with things others will be able
to follow. This was writer's 2nd experience with LSA. Previous experience
had been with 70 seeds 1 week earlier, which produced just some minor
visual contrast enhancement. Seeds were ground up and extracted into
distilled water for about 1 hour, then the 6 oz or so of water filtered and
consumed. Times are indicated in 24-hour format on most entries. Dosed at
1737.

1737 [Drank]. Taste lousey, but no immediate nausea. Took some
(distilled) water after.

1745 First hint of visual change [maybe placebo effect as quick as this was
though] (things seem slightly darker and lighter than usual). No nausea.
Nervousness [from unknown of experience] is far less than last time – just
slight so far. Skin starting to feel just a bit flushed.

Had a chance to look outside – sun has set but is still light. See the
usual sunset purple clear sky. Actually I think a walk outside at
beginning here would be nice – but I don’t trust that yet until have a lot
more experience.

1752 Practically no jitteryness. No nausea. However, just starting to
feel some tension in muscles. I am seeing definitely more contrast between
light and dark. Colors on [magazine] cover look a bit more vivid than
usual. Can tell vision a bit strange (contrast) as watch fingers at
keyboard. Do feel warm, and am sweating slightly.

1754 The tenseness in muscles is slightly, but not extremely,
uncomfortable. And feel it in nose too – kind of like when breathe in cold
air.

1756 Stomach does feel full, and am just slightly nauseous. Am starting to
notice the flicker of [PC monitor]. Muscles, mainly in face, feel tense.

1759 Somewhat more nausea. Feel like have to crap, but don’t feel like
sitting still that long. Am not jittery as far as motion, but mild to
moderate tension in muscles. Can definitely see the [computer monitor]
refresh flicker now.

1803 See slight “waviness” in vision if start [stare] at something – kind
of like a little pulsating. [Computer monitor] shows this a lot more.
Muscles still feel somewhat tense. Still slightly to moderately nauseous.
Time must also be passing a bit slowly since I’m writing updates so
frequently.

1807 I managed to estimate a minute on stopwatch – actually found as 1:17 –
but know I really compensated a lot. Thinking and typing becoming somewhat
difficult. Slight nausea, still slight to moderate tenseness in muscles
especially head. Starting to lose train of thought just slightly as write.

1811 Slight weakness. Coordination now seems somewhat impaired. Tenseness
in muscles seems to be decreasing just slightly. Contrast in vision is
increased – feels like am in a room with a bright light (such as a clear vs
frosted bulb), and shadows have a lot of contrast too. I think worst of
muscle tension and nausea may be past, but is still some.

1815 Maybe some slight (30%) [pupil] dilation at this point. Fingers seem
somewhat uncoordinated as type. I’m making spelling errors but Word
highlights them and I just go back and fix. Actually I don’t feel too
nervous, and muscle tension is decreaging.

1817 Yes some afterimages a bit in vision.

1818 Actually I feel pretty calm despite still some muscle tewnseness
(decreasing). Am not worried. Just now starting to feel some slightly
elated mood.

1819 Only head feels some muscle tension – rest of body feels better,
almost a bit of relaxation.

1822 [Pupils] probably 40% dilated. Just a hint of tension in face still
else body feeling good.

1833 Dammit (first word that came to mind) my computer just started humming
– I think the disk drive. Don’t think I’m imagining it because [my cat]
looked too. I heard it in the computer itself as put ear closer. Really I
did – comfident I did. Was going to shut down – but [sound] went away. Sounded
like the disk.

1835 I think [pupils are] 50% dilated. Not bad at 1 hour. Now to enjoy
experience. If peaking not for an hour yet or more is good. No more
negative muscle feelings – feel pleasantly relzx3ed.

1844 Picture3s [in magazine] all looked bright but I think is [pupil]
dilation (now 60% it seems).

1847 I thought for a second I had lost my watch (taken it off?) but then I
see its still on my arm.

No outright halucinations but feels weird – I ‘m surprised I’m not
concerned about but feel pretty good. Got slight after-image trails with
flashlight – again I wonder though if maybe just due to [pupil] dilation?

1853 I stared [out the window] at patio and could it seemed, maybe, make
grate “melt” or get fuzzy a bit if just stared.

1859 With glasses so can see well outside beautiful – reflections of each
individual light [3-dimensional] as bounces off double glass [of window] –
like andother image of (I’know my typing [is now poor] – I could correct if
I concentrate on or go back and correct but choose not). Wish I could go
outside and feel would be no problem but will remember my original plan and
not do anything drastically different from. Even sounds [hearing] a little
different – heard something different and realized was just [me] breathing!

1901 I feel the muscle relaxing, yawning, etc. feeling like on sedative or
something – is pleasant. Went into bright light of bathroom and pupils no
bigger maybe smaller a bit but things still looking weird but no
halucinations.

1902 yes time slow or at least seems like a lot longer than an hour and a
half ago when started.

1904 skin continues to feel a bit “ticklish” – good feeling not worried.
Am not nervous at all and am enjoying. Maybe should try reading some
philosphy or something? At least look at fractals maybe.

1905 mayse should try listen to [music] to see sound difference.

1912 I think [pupils] 70% dilated. Want to try everyhing at once – [a
treat for my cat],brush him so I can be close to him see what a cat is
like. His motions seemed really fast/jerky on bed – I think just because I
had had [a treat for him] up there.

Yes I can type if I concentrate on it. I have not made any mustakes (oops)
in this likne yet. Oh well.

1917 yes I think time is passing slowly but that’s good a lot I want to
enjoy it.

1920 I’d say [pupils] 80% dilated. Music sounds a bit weird kind of like
lose train of thought in [the music]. [If] I concentrate hard though I can
[feel sort or normal] – but just a few seconds then easily drift off again.

1928 body feels heavy but pleasant. Keep losing train of thought on music.
Could write more but want to enjoy – realize peake is probalby in next
hour so just enjoy instead.

1932 I think [pupils] only 70% dilated now though. Tain [train, I lived
right beside railroad tracks] came by and especially first part [when I
first saw it approach] seemed like seing [a train] for the first time
[ever] – big and new.

1942 no halucinations. Pupils look 70% dilated. It seems I can control my
thoughts and feel normal if concentate on it but only for a short while
then kind of drifting off while my fingers are still typing. Feel mostly
“body” effects, plus definite time slowdown. No “breathing room” or etc.
Is quite pleasant but not sure [if am having any] insights or anything?

1958 70% [pupil] dilation. Im thinking yes I enjoy this body feels good
like following train of thought but [not sure if]any real insights or is it
just fun?

Is body high like being a baby or young child? Maybe so. Feels like state
of consciousness after [orgasm], very pleasant.

2007 [This is] not good [-] found some gook on fingers don’t remember where
came from – was it from the soap [when I tried washing my hands]??

2008 where are the insights though? Got to try reading some philosophy or
something – maybe try [book Perenial Philosophy]?? Big sens of time
dilation. Seems like [having] trails from thought just like [people get]
trails in vision [i.e., as I think of different things the previous things
I was thinking about are still in my mind like an "after-image"].

2011 nah cant concentrate enough [to read]. But pleasant. Seems [like in
this state I am] good at taking thoughts and first impressions and running
off somewhere with them [like free association]. Want to enjoy some visual
stuff [so put on] glasses again and look outside. [What is the earlierst I
had decided beforehand I would] walk? Lost my train of thought [again
because keep]getting distracted. Happy time [passing slowly] because this
is fun.

2015 pupils smaller? Still about 70% dilated I think. I think supposed to
be past peak. Fun. I don’t know if insightful or anything but weird and
fun.

I’m not seing anyting weird visually. Is more [that] thoughts flow on and
off in separate directions [like I'm thinking about more than one thing at
once]. What was I trying to say? Oh yes I think this more like a hypnotic
than halucinagenic. Or “truth serum” of some type maybe?

2022 I don’t dare walk, is getting still weirder like in a dream.

2025 still background yawning and skin feels funny no weird memories or
anythign but seems still getting stronger [I am having a] hard time
remembering what I want to try or even to finish writing.

Ok try music if I can remember long enough to try.

2031 I realize peake and fun ant that wont last but lose train of thought
before write it all. I don’t dare go outside. But no visuals. Could I
recall things any better? Maybe if someone could lead me but I keep losing
train of thought. Feels good but keep losing train of thought. I don’t
thinnk peake yet still. Glad but I realize I’m out of it but is very
pleasant I don’t dare walk.

2033 pretty darn intense. But no visual or anyting is all in time dilation
and weird lose train of thought.


2036 “Groovy” maybe? Even [texture of cat litter in box] looks
interesting.

2037 Should be scared but not? No emotions or no more than usual. I think
effects still increasing at 2038. I realize I’m out of it a bunch.

Sure seems like this has been going on forever but I still think I like it.
Emotions numb if anythings,not intensified. I realize am out of it
bigtime but that will come down before too long.

Time dilation incredible I think due to thoughts going off down on all
streems so many at once.

2041 I know enough to record the time but lose track much after that.
[I'm now listening to] Beatles song “goodnight” [and it seems like
something far away] in another part of brain.

Slight scared due to intensity but seems instead emotions numbed. No
visuals just real hypnotic feeling thoughts on all sorts of streems.

Just enjoy it I guess while it lasts.

Is it still getting stronger?

2043 I don’t think [should take in the future] any larger dose or would
completely lose it. But still surprised not visuals and even vision seems
quite ordinary.

I think still coming up at 2047.

70% maybe 80% on pupils. I have a hard time remembering to check. Still
coming up I think at 2049.

In a way anxious for to be over just because has been such a good “trip”
and then have completion but surre enjoying still.

2050 Know enough to reason that will soon be over in an hour or two. Not
anxious for this to happen just saying I realize it.

Everything looks pretty normal but my thoughts arent. Followign all sorts
of trains. Glad in a way is continuing – is still very pleasant, butr
think will be glad at having done too. Looking forward to [experience
being over].

Big time dilation because pursuing so many thought trains so quickly.

Feel could have good [psychological insight into my mind] if someone led me
but keep losing train of thought [so I can't do it on my own].

2052 was 130 seeds yea good amount? Maybe 150 [would be best]? I don’t
think more than that because too spaced out [and could not handle] an
emergency [if one came up]. I know I should feel afraid [because this is
so intense] but emotions fine –

Don’t’ dare walk at this point.

Still say very pleasant but seems verrrry long time. I think still coming
up.

2109 have been recording on tape recorder. Is easier [than writing]. Am I
even still coming up a bit still? Incredible that lasting this long. But
no visuals. All a thought trip. [Feel] normal for a split second [when
writing] then thoughts trail off.

Might even still be coming up [at] 2111. In a way now getting kind of
anxious for this to be over. Very slight panic at that thought. But I
know its just a matter of time.

2111 Now sort of indifferent kind of anxious for it to end but know it
will. Not really unpleasant but seems kind of long.

2112 think [pupils] still 70% dilated. End please. Well not realy in a
hurry necessarily not that that bad but [am starting to get tired of the
experience].

2116 hard to write, lose train of thought.

Will I be worried that this too far later? Don’t know. Too “out of it”
now. Still coming up???? My gosh 2116 on watch.

Was trying to eat but not really that hungary. Slight panic now that so
extreme. Panic now.

Need to pull self together. Will be over. Just wait.

Feel I should go outside to get mind back on normal. No [not wise]. Still
coming up [at] 2119. But know will end eventually.

2120 I need a more pleasant distraction. Think still coming up. But know
will end. Sweating a bit. Darn! Still 70% dilated [pupils].

2128 scary thing is that I think may still be going up. Wish could walk to
calm down but afraid to [for safety reasons].

2129 cant seem to distract self long enough with music to improve mode
[mood]because keep losing train of thought. I am sweating but not totally
panicked or anytihng quite yet.

2130 feel could improve my “trip” but cant keep my thoughts on it long
enough. I’m starting to get sweaty.

2135 I know I just have to wait it out is all. Based on time peak should
be close or maybe hopefully past.

2138 Problem is I cant hold train of though long enough to concentrate on
something more positive and afraid to walk outside which would probably
help. Glad its not LSD which would be twice as long [LSD lasts longer than
LSA].

2140 I understand how [Albert Hoffman] might worry that [he] had damaged
his mind, wondering if will ever end but I know it will. Maybe just very
slightly coming down just very slightly now.

What insights have I had? Not that great. Maybe originally in first
couple hours but now has gotten too weird. End please. If someone was
here they could probably get my thoughts on more positive things but I cant
concentrate long enough to do it myself.

2145 This is pretty intense. I can see how people might “freek out” if
they were getting visuals too. Glad 130 seeds and not more. Just have to
wait is all.

2149 Feels like in a dream. Wish was more pleasant, but cant keep thoughts
on positive long enough.

2158 60% [pupil dilation]? Might be a good sign. Still feel very much
like in a dream. Unpleasant. But just have to wait.

2201 Come on, just hurry up and end.

2229 Does finally feel like coming down a bit. Longer and longer periods
of being able to hold thought train. And it won’t be any too soon. Yes I
am actually typing this with far fewer errors than before. But still feel
very “dreamy”. But even as I write its decreasing.

2237 Some nausea remains. Still very spacey but now able to hold train of
thought much longer and seems things feel like “quieting down”.

2239 Pupils down to 50-60% dilated. Was going to say will go ahead and
walk but then just lost it a bit again. Maybe goal for walk time should be
say 2300?

2241 Coming down. Okay, write this while still fresh in mind.
Think its not worth it – turned negative and could not solve, could have
potentially been panic situation if had been any stronger dose.

At first was the enhanced visual perception. And the “body high”. Then
began to lose train of thought too much, but still pleasant. Finally
though started to panic a bit. Seemed “body high” wore off but thoughts
still as confused as ever. And thus quite unpleasant.

2249 I’d estimate effects (confused thought) down at least 40% from peak.
Looks like pupils say 50% dilated now. “Dreamy” aspect is still biggest
effect. And still some nausea if stop to pay attention to.

2255 50% dilated I’d say. Continuing to come down. Think reasonably safe
to walk. If saw others would probably be down enough by then since coming
down as we speak. If I concentrate on my typing I can hold my train of
thought and make few mistakes.

2257 I will walk at 2300.

2308 Walked around the lake. Feel “good” in the sense of “what a relief
that its (mostly) over”. Still a little strange back inside but feel am
gradually returning to normal. Will probably stay up an hour or two yet to
allow more return.

2311 it just worsened again a bit as I tried to eat but was too nauseous”.
Fear seems to bring it back.

2314 feeling more “out of it” again – some panic – is this a “flashback”???

2314 Just end please. I think it is ending, but not fast enough.

2315 Still feel nauseous and sick and “out of it”. Pupils probably are 50%
dilated still.

2348 Going in and out of “spaciness”. If concentrate on what doiong, feel
closer to normal. But if then look around, feel spacey again. Was able to
shower, brush teeth, and put away tapes, etc. had out.

0025 I’d say pupils about 40% dilated.

0033 Finally able to eat – rest of Bugles and the candy bar. Returning
appetite.

0038 Will go ahead and shut computer down. Bed soon. Feeling say 80% back
to normal. I’d say 30-40% dilated [pupils].