does anyone ever experience this?

it only happens when i'm alone, and since i was fairly young, and no drugs involved!

sometimes i get this overwelming feeling about the fact that i have a body and that i'm a person, if i look at my hands or my face i think, hmm so that's me then! it's almost as though i've woken up and i can't believe i am who i am, the more i think about it when it happens the stranger it gets, almost as if i'm just borrowing this body and it doesn't belong to me.

i'm not sure if i've explained this very well.......

how odd!

 

i know what you mean. i`ve only had it once. but i mainly when i`m stressed (which is often) get the opposite thing, where i`m not aware of my physical self. nothing physical at all, just my mind, and then i freak out feeling trapped in my body and forget how to move. so kinda like being so stressed out/grievous, that i`m paralysed. oh, i`ve never touched drugs either heh

anywho

 

omg that shit always happens to me. do u know how much shit is going on in our bodies. its crazy to think about it. yeah that shit totally amazes me.

 

I have had that a lots of times..mostly in the mornings . i am sure their is a realy long word for it

 

It maybe happens when not a lot is going on in the mind..so it is not distracted from the self..or something like that..

 

phewee, so glad i'm not the only one, i wonder what causes it, do you think i'm an alien in somebodies body, now ther's a thought........

 

It's called depersonalization, and there have been other threads about it. A sizable amount of the world's population experiences this at least one time in their life.. here's a site with more info:

http://www.depersonalization.info/main.html

I can say that I've never felt like this while sober.

 

that happens to me all the time i know exactly what you mean. like if i stare at myself in the mirror too long i start thinking why am i me and other stuff like that and maybe im someone else just in a different body. its scary!

 

I never quote myself ...but i guess i was on the money this time..i don't realy want to be cured.

 

That shit happens to me all the time it's really weird.

 

I get that too, its really freaky

 

Is everybody (above) confident.....???? me ... no.!!! but i do a good job pretending ....... does everybody (above) get a full nights sleep.... just asking :&

anyway..


Subject: Too smart for our own good?Name: TodDate Posted: Aug 19, 04 - 3:23 AMMessage: I spend 24 hours a day in deep and unnatural thought. I find myself analyzing the depth of unreality, coming as far as to challenge my own mind in an unending attempt to find error or fault in my own judgments. I am in a never-ending process of discovery that has taken control of my life, and while my mind seems hyperactive, my physical self is becoming lifeless. I go so deep, so incredibly deep into my own thoughts that the things I find cannot be described by words. Sometimes I believe I have found things that no body can understand, and because of this, I find myself departing from society. I don’t mean to be rude to my own family and friends, but sometimes I just feel too darn intelligent. I have even tried talking to my friends about my findings only to receive replies such as “Whatever dude, I don’t think about that kind of stuff.” I feel alone in the world, as if there is no one that can truly understand me. And alone in myself, as if I cannot understand the world. I have come to so many conclusions about life itself, that normal society just seems so pointless to me. I am still in high school, and I can’t help but chuckle as see thousands of students sitting in front of some person they don’t even no, packing their minds with crap they just take for granted. Why they heck are they learning these things, and what does it really mean? I know that there is so much more to life that us human can never understand, and it bothers me to the point of anger. So many people think that they know what life is, but they will never truly understand. People think that they can think for themselves, that they can have unique opinions or thoughts, when in reality, they are nothing but an orginizim with a mind that has been created by past experiences. If any two people switched lives from birth, it wouldn’t change anything, and that bothers me. It bothers me that in truth, everything that I believe, everything that I think, and everything that I know means nothing at all. I think I know the basics to life, what is right? what is wrong? but I do not “know” these things, you have been told these things.

I DON'T WANT TO BE TOLD ANYMORE

I want to be myself, I want to think for myself, but this is not possible, for everything that is “me” is everything that was never really anything at all.

I just find basic knowledge so pointless these days. People go to school thinking that they will broaden their minds, and expand their knowledge, when in fact what has become known as “learning” is nothing but a limitation. Once you are told what something is, you start to believe what you where told, and once you believe it, there is NO going back. The fact is, once you believe that 2 plus 2 is 4, then that is exactly what it is, nothing more, and nothing less. In a parallel universe, 2 plus 2 might not even exist, but in our world 2 plus 2 is 4, and that’s what it is. Before you were told that the world was rounds the world was whatever you wanted it to be. In fact, maybe what you though the world was is something that cannot be described by any word, and that is so much more “true“ and so much more powerful than “round.” When you were born, you were given a clean slate, a blank mind, and the more you continue to learn, the more trapped by other ideas and thoughts you will become.

There are things that we will never understand, because the human mind has its limitations, just like any other being. Many people think that we are the most intelligent living things, when in truth, we are simply the most intelligent thing we can understand. The fact is, I bet every fish in the sea believes they are the most intelligent species in the see, but that's because they can’t understand the idea of “land.” They just don't have the mental capacity to know that humans exist, at least most don’t. Of course there may be those few fish that get hooked one day by a fisherman that is out for some fun, and when he is thrown back, not a single fish will believe his story. We simply can’t understand the universe, and those few who might have caught a little glimpse get shot down as crazy.

So what is the point? The point to life that is. I don’t have the mental capacity to fully understand life itself, so were am I supposed to go from there? Am I the only one that is bothered by our own unknown stupidity? I find no point in the pleasures of life, because I don’t even know if what I like to do is really what I like to do. Do I like candy because it’s good, or do I like it because everyone ells in the world likes it, and my past experiences tell me that I should like it. In the end, what is the point to anything? Why should I go to school when I don’t even know why I am learning. Why should I try to learn when I don’t even understand what it is to learn. And why should I try to understand, when I already know that I never will. "The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing."




Gee whiz.....It should be re-named depresionalization

 

yes foxey lady that's exactly what i mean, its funny cos i've talked to other people about it and they just look at you like you've totally lost the plot! so i'm not an alien then? ;-)

 

i used to feel that all the time when i was around 8 years old. i didn't think it was really strange or anything, i kind of thought it was just reality, and that it was really cool that i had a body and i did exist physically.

when i started smoking way too much pot (heh) it stopped happening (that was around the age of 16). i started feeling the opposite way... like i DIDN'T actually have a body, like i was imagining everything and that i was seeing things that weren't there outside of my mind.

i've been completley sober for a few months now, and i've started having the original feeling again. what's more is, when i look at my boyfriend, i can't believe it's him! i'm so excited that he exists! that he has a body, that i have a body... it feels so amazing to realize it over and over.

i love that feeling.

 

I have lived my entire life thinking that I was the only one who had episodes like that, and here I've found tons of people who confirm that I'm not nuts! It started out when someone would say my name...and I'd repeat it, thinking, "Whoa. Thats my name. That belongs to me...and they see me in a way that I don't." And all sorts of other crazy shit...it comes to me at bizarre times, also. Its fun though...Its like I find myself each time it happens.

 

ya and then you keep looking at yourself (in the mirror or not) and realize that there is a skeleton underneath, with blood and muscels (<<and you use google to spell simple words like a dumb ass) but mostly a skeleton, a jaw when chewing and get even more pleasently wierded out by your physical body..yup totally know what you mean, happens a lot to me, but the novelty wears for me, unfortunately. I think its a sign of a free mind. Liking these forums.

 

yeah though i try not to think about the skeleton part cos it freaks me out lol!

 

Wow Mathew I am going to keep that post as a example of what a great philosipher thinks when they are young.

 

This happens to my quite often...sometimes i am amazed that i am this creature who can move around without really thinking about it.


Sometimes i think we are just borrowing this body....its alla transitory dream....maybe our energy does move on somewhere else when this fragile body, one that can die with the eruption of a single blood vessle, ceases to function.

 

i do this all the time too.... especially sometimes upon hearing my name.. used to i just got this weird feeling.. and didnt think too much about why i got the feeling because i was preoccupied with the feeling itsself. i wonder lately if maybe part of the reason i feel depersonalized or whatever upon hearing my name sometimes... has anything to do with the fact that (as stated earlier... im probably stealing thoughts here from that long post) as babies we are given a blank slate.... ok.. blank but we start to make observations and we have emotions and all that.. so when does the slate start to fill up??? when you start to write words on it... language (whatever form.. writing sign language, body language, words) is a collection of symbols made to represent these feelings and observations we make in life.... thing is... we do not get the chance as babies to make up our own language because there is a language already there for us...as soon as you start learning words.. for example dog.. you learn that dog means that animal that wags its tail all the time.... you form your own opinion of what dog is ... but at the same time you pick up on some of the connotations of what all the people before you who learned the word "dog" thought dog was... the word takes on a life of its own and soon ... because of the symbol.. or word dog... you start to see dog as more than you had originally seen dog as because of the word itsself. .... i think with a name for a person.. well... anyone ever notice how a name seems different with each person.. and personality it represents? well that is because the word also changes along with the ever evolving observances of people who use it... but at the same time.... the person is also changing.. and i think there are moments when its like.. .hey am i really what this symbol represents me as? even what it represents me as to myself????? of ourselves we were not born with names...they are not a part of our body or minds until we are taught that they are. try to think of yourself for a moment.... with no words... not even in your mind.. and who you are and what you feel and observe ... use no words..... i dont know what it will bring or what the point is but it is certainly a different feeling than when you think of yourself with words. ever notice how you go type your description in your profile and nothing you say seems right ? and you choose something just cuz it seems the closest thing to describing who you really are? or is that just me?