Truthfully, i didnt know where else to put this so i put it here. Over time i've realised that alot of times that i have the chance to go out and hang out with firends, actually im missing a pasta party right now (for xc) because i have too much homework. Even though i finished all the homework thats due tomorrow by the time it started and could have headed over. (no chance of leaving while im typing this, parents are out, no way to get there) I think i can trace it back to my parents being a bit over-protective, i mean they're not crazy over-protective, but enough that over time its worked its way into my head that its almost like a problem to go out some where (some of the time). Its not as bad as it sounds, but for some reason im always pesimistic whenever i get the chance to do something. Now sometimes ill think ill be better off staying at home, it isnt worth going wherever, then hate myself for it later. The way im writing this probably makes you think its worse than it is, its not like i never go out or anything, but alot of times i just get that feeling that i should be at home, then regret it. Actually i just needed to write this to vent, post or post not.
I never call people... well usually. and thats pretty bad when you care about your friends. I tell myself I just don't like to "yak" on the phone, either they can come chil or not. But with friends across the country that isn't an option. To be honest I think it's a defense mechanism, not putting myself out there, but who knows. Maybe I really just don't like to yak. But yea my parents were alittle over protective of me too, but in a weird way. I remember one year they had a P.I. follow me around, but that didn't stop me from going out, if anything I rebeled!!!! So I went out, but gods know I cannot pick up a phone.... unless I'm drunk and bored so I don't have any advice. but I do know what you mean...
hey don't worry about it, i went through a stage of doing that as well. if you don't feel like making an effort, don't. find friends that you enjoy hanging out with so much that you won't even question going out to see...that's when your social life will really take off. i used to hate going out because i couldn't stand the people i was with, but now i've found some great friends who i'm comfortable with, and whenever they invite me somewhere i just walk out the door and go. you'll find your niche in the meantime, keep doing your homework. if you don't particularly want to go out, then do something useful instead. then at least when you do start enjoying your social life more, you'll have good grades backing you up :sunglasse
