I think I have manic depression

Or bipolor. When I drink (and lately when I'm not) I am so fucking manic. One second I love my life and want to live forever and the next I'm ready to blow my fucking brains out.


I'm on aim right now talking to my friends and this chick I want to be my g/f and it's pissing me off and shit and I just feel like shit all the sudden man fuck.

alcohol is not meant for me.

 

It'll do it to anyone, I get crazier than that, so I try not to drink as much. If you have stuff goign on with you, and your holdign it in, it will come out when your drunk.

 

Smoke a blunt and calm down. Either that or go to sleep.

 

I wish I could let myself go upstairs and sleep but I just can't I'm glued to this fucking screen. Last time I got drunk I did spill a lot of shit to people so I'm off aim now but damn do I feel like shit.

 

Then take my first suggestion.

 

Honestly I dont know why the fuck I posted this but it gets to me all the time like i'll be having a great day then all the sudden for no reason, nothing bad happens, i just feel depressed and nearly suicidal sometimes. i just wanted to put it out there to someone that will comment on it since obviously I dont wanna bring this shit up to my rents and I don't feel like telling my friends I think i'm depressed so hipforums it is.

 

trust me I would if it was possible.

 

The fact that you're depressed is nothing you should be ashamed of, and you should have no problem telling your parents. You may need to see a therapist. I did for a while, but all he did for me was notice that I wasn't depressed anymore and credited weed with bringing me out of my depression. lol But maybe you have a good reason you don't want your parents to know. It's really up to you what you are gonna do about it. We all have our own ways for dealing with shit like this. Weed was my way. Maybe you just shouldn't be drinking. I get that same way when I drink, except I'll start hitting people and throwing shit.

 

I know the feeling man. I've been there, alot of fucked up shit has been happening to me all my life, really fucked up shit has been happening to me in the last month. But, dude, shit changes, people move on, time moves on, your life changes. Life is like a roller coaster, it'll throw you up, down, spin you in circles, and might even make you throw up, but you just gota hold on for the ride, becuase later on you'll hit a new part of the track and it'll be all good, How will you ever find otu of anyhting good comes to you if you quit now?

 

I'm not gonna kill myself it's just I have this terrible feeling of nothingness. Shit

 

Welcome to being drunk....

 

^^ when im drunk i dont have a feeling of nothingness.....i have a feeling of warmness and goodness hahaha

 

You're lucky then.

 

I'm the same as STON3R when drunk, if you guys feel like shit when you drink, why drink?

 

some people really just need to learn more about one self before delving into mind altering substances no matter what they are,,,, no point in going into it all after all i am in the stoners lounge n would be a moot effort..... ... so all i can offer is "it takes a strong mind to do good drugs" n anymore even the not so good... just another symptom of the world today n its many illnesses

 

btw, manic depression is bipolar,

 

this thread is fucking depressing in itself. if you feel like shit when you drink, that sucks but i'm sure there are people on this earth with a lot bigger problems than feeling like shit when you drink and girls, so I tend to not let myself get so upset over shit likle that. As long as you just look at things in perspective you'll feel a lot better

 

dude i dont even need to get drunk to feel depressed ( i dunno alcohol just makes me really happy) sometimes i just look upon everything and just think how pointless my life is- well it was pointless before now that i smoke weed o have something to look forward too like waiting for whatever day to get more ganja or meeting up with friends to smoke out. i dunno some really weird shit happened before which changed my views. basicly 1year ago my parents divorced (my dad said that he was seeing another woman and was gona go to U.S for some time) that hit me as a shock since my dad was a really clever person i could sometimes talk to about many things- these conversations made me realise alot and made me happy that i had someone like him. but then this one day he said he left and i just felt like crap.
i was really pissed off and just felt really shit- kinda suicidal but not actually thinking about killin myself just like theres nothing left- especially since my mum doesnt understand shit about me. so the next day i found out what i needed to do. i got everything i needed in a week and then got some quality mj seeds and started growing weed in my closet. for the month i grew it just made me really happy looking at it develop cm by cm and realised it wasnt the growing- it was just being around mj. so i realised my equipment was shit and stopped- moved the plants to another plce, and never found them again. after that i concentrated on getting connections for buying mj and in a few moths it were just a phone call away. now however shit a moment of my life would seem, i would just smoke up- and think things through stoned style- finnaly realising shit wasnt bad- and it were only temporary. now im feeling like shit again cuz my dad came back to UK with his new woman and i dunno why i just dont like being around him anymore. he lives like 30min(car ride) away from me so i stil see him sometimes it just that i dont need no ones oppinions no more since weed helps me develop mine. most of the shit i take happens cuz im young so i just concentrate on the fact that once im 18 i can live however i want- since only depression i get now is staying up late to smoke.

basicly mj opened up my eyes how life is trully great and every second is important so now im a changed person aswell- i used to be really mean to others , now i just say what i must say and try to help people out. i dunno to some this may seem really dumb but hey thats me and i dont give a fuck what people think aslong as i respect my loved ones and friends and that they respect me is all that matters now.

depression can be defeated in many ways- and since i never felt like talking to friends about deep issues my dad would be there. once he left mj was all i had- so i reckon it can be work like this foreveryone.

also if its only alcohol that makes u depressed then u should just stop drinking- cuz i mean iys not the only substance to chill out wiht.

i dunno

peace :S

 

What I think is if you have under-lying anxiety problems drinking will deftinaly bring them out. I'm the same way. If I get drunk, everything starts going through my head, then I feel like shit, like I'm nothing at all.

 

Suicide's the permanent solution to a temporary problem. Hey, you might be able to get some legal drugs out of this.