Really? Have you ever sat down and really looked at your life and the things you do and feel disconnected from who you are? Or have you ever done something, that you never thought you were capable of, and sit around for weeks wondering. "Did I really do that?" and "What was I thinking?" Or have you ever been in a point in your life where you were comfortable, things were good, and then all of a sudden you were no longer satisfied, and wanted/needed to become someone else, or become another part of yourself? And isn't that shit trippy as hell? What makes you who you are, and if you were someone else, how would you recognize yourself, outside of your own mind?
Aish!!! Have to answer yes to all of the above. and to the last question of what makes me who I am and how I would recognise myself, outsideof my own mind - I'd be the one shouting my opinions forcefully from the rooftops, and never allowing anyone to make me think I was worthless or silly. What makes me me is the way that I think, everyone has a unique way of thinking and of being, I've found my unique me and I am not letting go...
Yeah, I like the way that I think, but outside of my mind, I don't know if I'd recognize myself in a room full of strangers. And I'm excluding physicalities.
Well, let's just say, I've been doing some things recently, I never thought I'd do. I don't know how I'd recognize myself. My thoughts are how I connect with myself, but I dont connect with the outside world in that way. I suppose you could say, I am not true to myself, outside of myself... so it seems.
You don't think it's trippy to suddenly not be able to relate/understand/recognize yourself or things you've done or things you've felt?
Yes. Many...many, many times Ive done things that I look back on and can't believe such actions and bevahiours were carried out. Its almost like an identity split when you look back and think of what you did. Not a good feeling at all. Makes me think that if I was once capable of doing something completely out of character, then the same will apply to the future. Once again, yes. I think that happens because I have yet to really come to terms with past matters. I bury them, inside, and ignore them...so much so that when I think all is good, I realise that its just a lie. Its just a facade. Sometimes I think life's too short to only be one person...its like tying yourself down to a certain set of characteristics, and thats not fair. If you have many sides of you, you should express them. Its tricky though....you start feeling certain complexities, as youve outlined...such as self betrayal.
Q1... Yes many times on (and off) many drugs in many different situations Q2... Not that I remember. If I did it would have been in my youth and now, nothing I do or think suprises me. But then again, we never 'know' what we haven't experienced. Q3... Can't say I have. There have been times when I have been comfortable and things were good and then things out of my control have changed the situation and this experience leads to more change, which leads to becoming a (slightly) different person. As for becoming a different part of yourself, surely if you are aware of this other part, it is something you have already experienced and therefore not new? Q4... Hell? Well lets not go there (excuse the pun) Q5... I'm sure some ancient philosopher or other person has said this a lot better but I don't read that stuff so only have my own idea on the question, which I have contemplated before now. My conclusion is that "We are the sum of our own experience" Q5... If this question is meant to confuse, it has! If not, can you explain what you mean as I don't understand either...
This should again point out the subjective nature of reality. Chemicals and hormones make us who we are.
I've done things that were completely out of character for me. Things I'm not too proud of. I'm trying now to just live in the moment. Perhaps toss an occasional glance towards the future, but I'm trying desperately not to dwell on the past. We are in a constant state of evolution. We grow and wither with the tides, and not one is the same as the last. The world keeps turning, and we are swept along, mindful or not, and all we can do is to try to stay afloat amidst a sea of weary souls. It's just a ride. There are ups and downs and round and rounds. Sometimes we see ourselves, sometimes we see others, sometimes we see what others see in us. It's easy to get caught in the current, trapped in an eddy, or shot thru the rapids. There have been rough spots, there have been nice spots, and there have been places I'll never go again. I think tho, that by experienceing these things, I'll know better when the time comes just how to handle my oar. I won't be swept away so easily. I think these are just things we all have to learn at some point in our lives. I suppose if you don't you are just doomed to repeat them. And gosh, I don't know why, but it seems like I always have to learn things the hard way. Even when I've been told better, it's never the same as when you have the personal experience to relate to.
I have thought about who I am, where Im going after I die, ect. I think these thoughts daily. Im soul searching. I will find myself, When I find my self I learn something new about myself, and I change my oppion of who I am. I believe that all people are connected as one. I look at the behaviors of all who I meet and I find a similar character in myself. I believe Adam and Eve are my ansestors, I believe I came from them, I read in the bible that eve was made my one of Adams rib's. Therefore I believe Adam is in everyone. I believe everyone I meet is a part of me in a way, I have learned how I feel about everyone, I learned we are all good, I learned that my character is in everyone, I can see myself in others in a way, It may be a reaction I have, Or a reaction I'd like to have, but I didnt want to show my reaction. I believe I am connected to the world, I believe when the world is complete, I will be complete. I think there is a whole soul, that we will be. I believe we will be one. Im waiting. I give my peace, I give my love.
No not disconected form myself. Maybe disconected from other people. I have done a lot of things I thought i could never do. Many, many things. I believe this is all just apart of getting older. Ya know, to be all that you can be.
i get thoughts like that. ill think back 5 years to the state of mind i was in or the mentality i had towards things and just be amazed. in 5 years ill probably look back on myself now and be like WTF!?!?
Well yes all humans do those things the original poster talked of but some people do it more than others and to different degrees - all that self obsessed introspection stuff is really ok until you reach your 30's by which time all you really care about is whether you got enough reason to go to work the next day and whether you really are the c*nt your GF or BF said you are the night before. I dunno maybe I just dont do introverted or introspection anymore also the title of the thread is caled Who the Fuck Are You let Dizzee Rascal answer that maybe this is the way a gangster wld say it you don't want the beef you don't want the grime you ain't got the guts i aint got the time but you can come to the man and get jacked come to the MANOR get KILLED come to the MANOR get shot come to the MANOR get killed we call it ARMS HOUSE, ARMS HOUSE go n get your crew if you can't back that ARMS HOUSE who the fuck are you we call it ARMS HOUSE, ARMS HOUSE go n get your firm if they don't wanna listen then we better make em learn Same question but an extroverts answer
after i took shrooms for the 1st time i took a big look at my life and how i was treating people...like shit right after that i realized who i wanted to be, a happy outgoing guy that diddnt judge people too fast. and i can honestly say i am becoming that i also can relate to almost anyone after i took E for the 1st time, i feel im a better person because of it.
