i fantasize about suicide...

i dont think i would ever do it, my life is pretty ok, im not a melencholy person, but ill be writing stories in my jounals about how i would go about it, or sometimes draw pictures.
i dont think i would do it though.

 

what? fantasize or suicide?

 

If I ever commited suicide I wouldn't do it for some stupid reason like depression, and it is stupid, I'd only kill myself if I had to, like in war time, or if I was about to be raped in prison.

There's nothing to fantasize about suicide.

 

im not depressed, my life is going ok. i wouldnt kill myself if i was depressed. my dad died of leukimia two years ago, if i didnt do it then im not going to do it now. its hard to explain, i guess my own mortality, and the fact that i could end it if i chose to fasinates me. its not that im planning it, or even wanting to do it, i just think about it a lot. (even if i was raped in prison, i wouldnt do it)

 

I get in moods where I think about it

or if I'm holding a sharp object or a gun sometimes I will think about it

it is pretty interestign to think about

 

i imagine it like it was in a movie-all gory and nice

 

In a movie suicide is cool, in life....no. I get what you mean, but those can be dangerous thoughts.

 

i imagine it more like an indie film
all surreal and stuff

 

have you ever read anything about near death experiences?

 

I do too. Sometimes before I go to bed i tie a rope around my neck to my headboard. I move a lot in my sleep so if I fall out of bed I figure it will kill me. Hasn't happened yet though.

 

and pple are worried about me?

 

As long as it's just a fantasy, there's probably little worry there. Like insanejester said, everyone has thought about suicide. It's just a matter of whether you've got serious thoughts about doing it. If you ever do, confide in someone close to you, and have them help you find help.

 

Use it in your art.

 

Some fantasies become realities.

 

well gee, havent you brightened up everybodys day with that fun-filled comment

 

does that include the fantasy where im covered in whipcream and surounded by hot rockstars??

 

Thanks, I do try!

 

Absolutely!

 

awesome! excuse me.....

 

wow this thread made me realise how fucked up i am, thinking about suicide (in a fantasy way) has become mundane and now my mind wonders off to the thought of choping my hand and feet off with and axe... and it upsets me.

P.S. if i apparntly commit suicide, it was a set up, i was murdered... especially if it's an overdose...