A girl that hurt me & beat me back in middle school we'll call Liz. Liz would hurt me so bad that I now have to take medication for a stomach problem my doctors are still trying to figure out what exactly is. After Liz would beat me after school I would go home with bruises & quickly run up to my bedroom & masturbate in release with her in mind. Sometimes as I was laying on the ground as she whaled blows onto my body I would grab her & sexually feel the force of her body against me in somewhat misguided delight. Never hitting back or striking back upon her, I only provoked, even though I was much older & taller than her. I use to enjoy her taking her frustrations out onto me in carnage, it made me feel so alive to know she was so close to me. I was so good looking, so innocent at the time, I want it her to beat the ugliness into me. Some while ago she made a pass at me. I wonder if I should send her a letter in the mail telling her to contact me because I'm interested? What you guys think?
I'm a guy, I mean I'm a pretty strong guy in character, you know? Won't take crap from no body if it comes down to it. I just feel attracted to her, she's a pretty good looking girl & I use to really unusually enjoy it when she beat me so viciously. Wonder why?
............okay......................I'm trying to figure out how but nothing's coming to me.........how........how the fuck! Does that turn you on?
I don't know Dude. It sounds like you need a good spanking. I guess it could be where a strange fetish might come from.
It sounds to me like your a natural submissive and she is a natural dominant. Thats cool, you should go with it. Also pick up some S&M erotica books, your not alone.
it sounds like she's a sadist or a psychopath and like he's confused with a -potential- lean towards being submissive or masochistic. I mean, yes this took a sexual turn for him, but the "beating ugliness into me" thing is more prevalent in my mind. There's nothign wrong with bdsm, but to the point where it fucks your body up outside of the bedroom is NOT GOOD. And it sounds like the chick has no control, which is sooooo not what you want in a top. I'd recommend seeing a therapist and talking it out with a trained professional, to be honest. If you're still in school, your school probably has some guidance counsellors or therapists around that you can talk to free of charge
i agree that beatting ugliness into me seems like a pretty serius issue ive seen the whole bdsm thing get extremely ugly before, usualy in my limmeted experience with that world ive seen more of the opposite role, but regardless to me it sounds more like you should seek therapy rather then get involved in something that can be quite dammaging both mentaly and physicaly
uh wow. middle school was a fucked up time for everyone i think. im sure youre both completely different people, and im sure shes sorry for what shes done. she probably only beat you because she liked you. sounds fucked up but its probably true. i say fuck her, hard.
