too much on the mind, always being misunderstood, feeling very vulnerable and alone, sad...i want to be left alone, but i want to speak up and out too, but it leaves me feeling more vulnerable, more alone. i dont want to be put in that position, im too private for that, and yet thats part of the problem. i either have to close right up, or open myself right up and let the social callouses form further. this mostly closed partly open ideology obviously isn't working for me. i have to be up early tommorow, and i already dont want to go.
Hey there you Way out there in the distance Can you hear me Are you there I know it's late So please forgive my persistence But I'm hanging Do you care So lay back Call off the attack Cause if you look deep Dreams are nothing that I lack And all I seek A final chance to speak And I would let the whole thing keep If I could just sleep Hey there you Way out there could you show me Just a signal Or a sign That after all All these years that you've known me And I'm not just killing time So lay back Call off the attack Cause if you look deep Dreams are nothing that I lack And all I seek A final chance to speak But I would let the whole thing keep If I could just sleep As I lay there late at night Building castles in the air Out of alibis and all those little lies And then I look inside And pray that I don't care I don't care I don't care Hey there you way out there in the distance
When i'm feeling sad and alone i generally drink myself into oblivion. Of course that's not for everyone, and you said you have to be up in the morning.
Nothing quite like being rejected for being human. *hugs* You're a smart guy, a great guy, you'll find a way past this somehow... you know you can always talk to me too
its 340 am...... and no i cant sleep .....consumed a lot of quality analgesics......dont want to sleep either ......or be awake .......people here in maknoville are treating me badly ......only sex with a purto rican girl can save me .......
