Not as dreay as usual, but problematic relations none the less

It was a short summer fling, and with minor details that placed it off the normal track, she was the closest relationship for me that been the most like others. and it went quite well, she had leave and we went our ways and left most we did behind

it was a simple 2 day realtions, that didn't procced past lips and touching

i put it behind me, i moved on preety easily but then comes the tinge of a promblem

frist of all she is my 2nd cousin, and i knew i would see her again in a year and a year from now seemed like decades and so i would just build over when i saw her then, but an event has come up, and she is coming back, and things complicate a little bit

frist off my brother knows what happened, and he doesn't approve, on two differnet accounts, and his silence about us is us, and he could tlak to her

frist off he knows my realtionship records, in some part, and he belives that i took advantage of her which i did not such things everything was mutual, but he belives that i forced her into things and took advantage becasue she was lonely, and i somehow used it to obtain her, which is seriously not true

-- she is one year younger then me, true she does have some confidence promblem (she one of those people you know who think their stupid when their really not, they give in easy on mental anythings) but then how many high schoolers don't have issues

--she recently ran away from home becasue her father took custody of her after leaver her mother when she was young, (she lives with my great aunt up north) everyone has promblems and if anything i think i helped her, she did have tinges of sadness, some silents when we she wasn't covering up with similes, and we all have promblems

2ndly and simply she is related to me, which doesn't bother me at all

personally, he is just a prune who has forgotten what it's like to be alone

but enouph about him

i do want to hook things up again but i really don't want to come off as too strong or too physical but she only going down for a weekend, if i could i would kiss as soon as we were alone, but it been about month since we were together and basically should i talk to her frist and slowly ease my self back in? is this too much to ask becasue you know to little about our fling? i really don't want to be shallow aobut her but i really want to get really close to her, and i won't pussyfoot around it but i want to fuck her, and if everything wasn't so knew to me last time i might of, but trust me that it is not evil it's a natural desire right? i mean sex is a natural impulse, and i'm guy and of course i want to take it further.
long long if you read it thx two weeks till she come gosh, so many things to wonder

 

I'd talk it out with her first, but that's just me.