Something that's been on my mind

For quite some time now.

When it comes to thinking about my life and future, I can envision a few paths for myself to follow. One of these is basically living in an apartment somewhere, working a mediocre job, having little to no life watching tv/videogames whilst getting high.

I'm aware of most of, or maybe all of the negatives of that situation...but sometimes when I think about it, it makes me feel very comfortable.

I'm not a complete anti-social or anything like that. I do enjoy going places and socializing sometimes, so I'm not necessarily talking about being a complete hermit.

I think, no...know I would much prefer to live up to my full potential (which I believe is moderately high at least), but there's just something within my psyche that keeps calling me to down that other path.

Just for informative purposes, I'm 21 years old, haven't done college yet (although I just did take my first 2 classes this summer), and have basically just been working full time, in my own apartment(s) since I was about 19.

Can anyone relate, or maybe help to clear my confused mind?

 

Live up to your full potential. That's the least all of us can do!

 

There's nothing wrong with your lifestyle as such.I live similarly except I'm 20 years older than you;I don't play computer games & I occasionally,go out & get drunk with friends (which I regret later).I also estimate that I spend most weekday evenings of up to 5 hours per night 'surfing' the world wide web.

When I was 21 I had a lot of 'excessive-impulsive' energy & did a lot of travelling to college & hang-outs.
You are living by your own rules/code & that's fine as long as you don't feel you are missing out.

 

I am having a same problem here. I am graduating from uni, and currently looking for a job. However, there is a little voice in my mind. I don't want to getting into the rountin life. But what should I after?

 

Well yes, I think so. I actually see myself as somewhat of an everyman. My career experience is a tad bit on the limited side, but I've performed under pressure before and think myself to be a capable person. I feel comfortable in saying that I am pretty capable of doing well...there are a LOT of different professions I could see myself doing, but nothing yet that has just cried out to me "Pursue me!".

I dunno...I now need to quit my full time job if I wish to take full time classes this fall. The task seems a bit daunting, especially figuring out how my finances will work.

I just don't want to be full of regrets down the road...

 

don't regret anything that made you smile at one point. do what you want to as of right now and if down the road you change your mind than thats what happens but right now you would be happy and that is what is important for all you know you could be dead next year and realize you didn't do anything you wanted to do.

 

She's absolutely right man, the future's uncertain, make the present worthwhile, because the end is always near.

 

Your psyche is ever-changing. Do what you feel is necessary at this momemnt. Have no regrets. Live in the moment, not the past or future. Do exactly what you KNOW is right, don't wait around for somebody to tell you what you think is right. I know that I could die tomorrow and my soul would be at peace, do you?

 

You may be confused about the future being the same as the present. I personally try as hard as I can to put off making choices as long as possible if there is a feeling of confusion. I give myself plenty of time and come up with as many possibilities as I can during this time, but do not act on any of them until I get some sort of inspiration. Best get real comfortable with what you do now. Focus on that feeling over confusion. Then take a chance on something new......when you do ......... you are gonna hit those times you feel confusion.........but to succeed.........just remember that feeling of comfortable from before>>>>> to balance...........things work out.......they really do.
Be aware when that confused feeling hits and take it easy paying particular attention to reasons why to dismiss them as petty. Get real familar with those feelings of confusion, they can be from not eating right, not sleeping right, not hanging with the right people............and etc. . . . . it will go a long way into your future to learn how to handle the beginning of stress >>>>confusion.
We live at a time in history we don't have to sleep on the ground, eat poorly, live in unsanitary conditions, etc......so take what life has to offer that jives with you and you feel relaxed and comfortable with........that includes making the right choice for a girlfriend or any close friends........people close to you can cause some real havoc without even knowing it.

peace
Honor Seed

 

How long did it take you to graduate while working 40 hours a week? The way I have things figured, if I go to school full-time, then take summer classes on top of that, it'll be at least a few years for my bachelor's.

 

Throw yourself out there. Don't just do it, DO IT! Make something happen because your alive, this is your time and that's reason enough. Pick nothing less than one of your most closely held dreams and put every ounce of your energy into it. Play by your own rules, if nobody tells you that you cannot, then you can. You will absolutely rise to the top; remember you only have to be a tiny bit taller than everyone else to stand out in the crowd. It's prime time for you now because your asking all the right questions. You should assume you will need all you have, so you should REALLY give up the herbs & such while you step out because you will need every edge. That’s no thing anyway, you can do that again later, after you succeed in a huge way at the dream of your choice. Of course your way of life seems comfortable, it is! Like the HonorSeed pointed out, we live in amazing times. Imagine what you can do in this time of enablement. So, let the dog out, bro and kick some ass! One more thing, weather your playing court is made of red clay or brick & mortar, a wooden office or one of electrons, be good to people along the way, push whoever is over you up higher and higher – give them the credit, everyone will know who is driving things when the smoke clears. At all costs don’t get pulled into the politics (they exist everywhere). Live by kindness, never forget who you are. Tomorrow morning buy some shades, because together with your best effort, you will shine like the sun, bro!

Best,
PJay

 

Excellent advice pj. The thing I forgot a decade ago was the drinking brewskies after being successful at a days work. It eventually was part of wearing me to a frazzle. I fell for several years in successes and it has been real tough the last few to get back up on the curve, real tough. I have set goals so lofty, a huge success will take me a lifetime. From personnal experience drugs and alcohol eventually cause me to lose the edge in lifestyle. I don't suppose I'm different that way than anyone else.

As far as this discussion about going to college, I am a self taught pottery and art business person. Did it for 10 years before I audited a college class on pottery wiht a friend named Sheila. I was left with the distinct impression the class, which was multi level, did not teach well enough for anybody to competitive in the world wide marketplace. The Japanese have the edge. I would be real careful thinking I knew all there is needed to know coming out of college. There is nothing to compare to rolling up your sleeves and doing what it takes to be the best. Colleges may have the knowledge, may not. They do not instill a sense of honest hard work day after day working for yourself. I call it integrity when you kick ass and no one is around cuz you work for yourself. Colleges are prone to give a degree which a company that hires you can justify a higher salary. If this is all you ever do, you will never know the exhilaration of running your own life based on your love to compete. The things you learn are truly amazing, efficient movement getting things done is one of them. I was blasted outta the water when I started working with people about 2 decades ago. I simply can not believe that one works in a low gear cuz they don't get paid enuff. It is a national craze and probably the reason US companies move their factory biz across the seas...........but hey.......I'm dancing on a political line.......and PJ is absolutely right......stay away from political discussions at all costs.

peace
Honor

 

Thank you very much for this absolutely wise and well-thought piece of advice. It's giving just about every element of me that's "on the fence" about things, a real solid push towards the side of the uplifted. I still have my doubts about things...but I do feel like I know what's truly the right thing to do.

 

I'm starting full-time in school in a week...I'm looking forward to it, but still have these feelings. I now believe that they are a part of my psyche, and something I must learn to deal with.

 

Well, you're starting school, so good for you. I hope you find something that really sparks your interest.

 

if you have the money
travel
if you don't have the money you must learn a trade
then travel!!

 

I no exacly what your saying i got the same mind man rock on!!!

Nick