I think life is simply boring, simply empty. Everyday is the same, everybody is the same, every places is the same. I see you coming; change your lifestyle, meet some new people, travel around the world! Sounds cool, 'cause I'm a dreamer too. But when you are poor, you didn't get any educations, lonely, PLUS you are a fucking a drug addict and an alcoholic. The past just make today another fucking boring day in my life. I don't have fucking energy anymore to fight for that. The circle is getting old.
well YOU shouls use your fuckin brain: bored=going on autorepeat in life=having things too easy= i guess you are just spoiled... just go and do something challenging and stop feeling bored. try changin a habit, do a 2 days fasting (haha you'll see what is best bored or suffering....) stop complaining and DO someting about it
try fucking in the ass with some old dude ??? something new and spicy eh ? If you really think that... then .hmmm, analyze ur life what u want and wanna do... if u get to the same result.... take double dosge of heroin and let ur self go.... Enjoy last 24 suerp crazy hours in ur life.... !
I'm not an idiot, I agree with you honey! Well maybe I am an idiot, but I completely know what you mean. You're too cute to be meaningless though.
Yeah I know how ye feel. I used to be a pretty happy person but being stranded alone in the middle of nowhere everyday tends to get the better of you. Ah well, I could always try jumping off that cliff up the road but my motivation is too low anyway.
Barbuchon- dont be mean sweety ! how can some sexy dude likeu be so mean ?? My little soldier wants some of ur ass .. .awww
my 'then what?' was like .. to show that you could either type hoe bad life is and all or you could do something. if it got to the point where it was sooo bad then youd do something about it instead of sitting and complaining. dude, i dont know your life story and shit your been through, but if your life is really boring then commit to soemthing like making someone elses life better, someone who could really use your company like go volunteer. go volunteer. it can take you places and make you see shit in different light and change your percpective on life and then maybe when your just sitting on the porch, you want be thinking of how bored you are and that theres nothing to do, youll be like thankful for being able to just sit on the porch and just smile quietly to yourself. i just used my fucking brain. you proud man?
Sure you don't know my whole life story and blablabla, there's no point in saying it too. I'm not here to say how miserable I am and how wasted my life could be. BUT you are 15, your life at your age is WAY much more different. In my situation, I can't just sit on the porch and complain, the fuck is that? How could I just waste my time on that?!? Of course I'm busy, who will pay for my living? You can't just imagine that life is butterflies and candies. I'd like to meet people? Oh tell me where, because hey, when you are a sober junkie after few drugs rehabs, you don't want to waste that. So byebye bars, and mostly, byebye the city. Since I'm quite young and most people of my age are going out clubbing and everything, I'm quite lonely. I don't have really much opportunities to meet people since I had to quit school really young for "survival reasons". So most of my jobs are done alone and far away from the city. And by the same occasion, a low salary comes with that, byebye journeys, hobbies and fun stuff to spend money on. You know, I'd like my life to be something more than work to pay for some cheap ass food and a cheap ass home. But sometimes, you can't just change those things like that. And do you know what it is going back to school and at the same time working to pay for your living, it's hard, trust me, I am. I think I've heard that in a Pink Floyd's song: "The child has grown, the dream is gone." Something like that, well that is mostly my situation. I'd like to go back in the past when I was a kid, no worries, innocence. ahhhhh. Anyways it's not because you are sexy that you are happy. Maybe if I was richer I would buy mascara and emo clothes. hahaha never. Anyway tanx for the comments guys.
All I have to say is that life is what you make of it. The person with the worst situation on Earth could be happy if they decided to be. Hell, reality is what you make of it and you see what you choose to see.
I fucking hate that philosophy. Poeple saying that most of the time don't even know what they are talking about. Have you ever or really tasted it? For me, that philosophy is EXACTLY the same thing as religion. Trying to keep people down and calm. Am I suppose to close my eyes and ignore my situation and being happy about what I've got? Accepting things like they are when you know something better exists. I say fuck it. That is totally pathetic. Life isn't what you make out of it. SURE YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR PERCEPTION. My actual life is the result of what I've been confronting. And from my point of view and social's one; it's quite fucking shit. I could pretend to be happy to be lonely, alcoholic, drug addict, poor and might be crazy. But some people just want more than what they've got. Maybe I'd like to be happy having a familly to live with, having "normal genetics", having the chance to get the education that my brain deserves since I'm not a fucking idiot, you know, having a chance that life didn't give me yet. I'm trying to be positives; I got back to school while working at the same, doing meetings in AA and NA, doing drugs rehabs, having psy and medications, reading books to help me. So don't tell me I'm not making any actions and just complain about it. Everyday I wake up and hope my labours are going to be gratifying.
And dwelling on complete negatives is a better outlook on life than "pretending to be happy"? Everyone wants more than they have. That is the driving force of action of humankind- progress. But no progress is ever made from pitying oneself and wasting energy wishing for something else. I have totally experienced the suckiness of being in horrible situations and hating them. Most of my bad situations came about through things like genetics also, things you cannot control. But you CAN be happy with the life you have. But if you choose to be miserable about it than nobody else can help you. And you prob. still wouldn't be happy even if you never had any of the problems you now hate.
You didn't read all my post, don't you? It's been told about all actions I've made and keep on doing. I AM NOT WISHING FOR SOMETHING BETTER, I AM DOING WHAT DOES IT TAKES TO BE SOMETHING BETTER. So I'm telling that's not my destiny, I think there's something more to my life. I haven't choose lazyness and pitying myself.
