past can come back with a sting, and ruin a good thing

By the time anyone recives this she will most likely be gone. A girl, i won't specify so it doesn't dillude the topic, stayed the day and is sleeping over and is asleep right now in my house. I was able to get intimate with her, before she went to bed, i was interrupted by my brother so i thought it was for the best to let her rest in peace. I'm the only one awake right now, and she sleeping downstairs i want to go and lay with her in her bed, but whenever i get close. '

I don't know it is like flashback, i feel like i'm molesting her, even though this time it is mutual. i ,if you know or not, touched a girl wihtout her permission in her sleep before, and when i see the girl staying over, lets call her marie. WHen i see marie resting and i feel like i'm violating marie, she is my cousin but i don't think that matters at all

i don't know i feel badgered by mind, because it so hard so many memories are attcking me,and i'm at a loss at what to do, and she is leaving today

 

she is my cousin but i don't think that matters at all
I was able to get intimate with her, before she went to bed
i was interrupted by my brother so i thought it was for the best to let her rest in peace
even though this time it is mutual. i ,if you know or not, touched a girl wihtout her permission in her sleep before

I know I took those troubling quotes out of order. It sounds like you would benifit from professional help rather than internet advice. You would be taught how to repair (if possible) the girl you molested and how to have a normal (not guilt filled) relationship with a woman.

 

its would be stellar if their were some actully pyschologist on these forums, that wanted to help

 

it'd also be stellar if there were magic potions too, but sometimes you just cant have everything you want.

you have a complicated and very in depth problem that you will not be able to deal with easily. get yourself a psychologist/ professional help. i respect the fact that you want to deal with this problem, and the solution is not going to come easily. good luck with everything.