A pisce's problem I recently fell in love with a girl whom I just found out has an Astrocytomas PRIVATE brain tumor and has been diagnosed with a year to live. My mom has a cancerous tumor growing in her mouth as well and refuses to seek help or treatment, I do not appreciate life and would swap places with either of these 2 in a heart beat. I fear I will not be able to handle what the future holds for me and I guess i'm just looking for insight.
im moving this to the relationships forum because i think it would fit better there than love and sex, you'll also probably get more serious replies.
Well me believing in we are here to learn lessons etc... and everything happens for a reason. I think honestly that maybe this is something that will teach you to appericate life more. Im not goign to tell you everythingis going to be okay cause I don't know if it will. But Im sure with your love and support you will make them a lot happyer and maybe help them mentaly to deal with this.
I think the name "Brand New Soul" might be a bit of a misnomer. Brand new souls typically don't get that. But really, what she said. I've gone through my own horrors. Some people's horrors never come along until later in life, but we're all subject to them, and we all get our share eventually. You Are Not Alone. I guess the only way for a sane and intelligent person to come to grips with them is to realize, after the grieving is over, that dwelling on them and coming to fear the next blow is a waste of time. You learn to put it out of your head. I suppose that's a healthy form of denial: it may be willfully stupid, but what's the alternative? Wasted time and constant pain? I'll take willfully stupid. Spiritual beliefs help. They may only be comforting lies we tell ourselves, but I have (mostly subjective) evidence that a spiritual realm exists, and that death signifies nothing more serious than "GAME OVER, PLAY AGAIN?" At any rate, my beliefs allow me to continue functioning when nothing else would suffice. As to whether that's God's Love or simply a psychological trick I play on myself, I'm past caring. It keeps me going. It works. That's enough. We all have to deal with what Harlan Ellison (I think it was) called "the ugliness of simply being human." Might as well do what it takes to enjoy the enjoyable parts of the ride while we're here.
I have spiritual beliefs as well, I believe that the decisions we make in this lifetime determine our outcome in the next, and if the right decisions are made then one may pass onto the next plane of existance and gain a new sense. But I recently quit doing drugs,(pot and shrooms) and think that hard drugs will be the only thing that will keep me together. I really don't wanna live like that and kind of feel like starting over.
Jeez, this is starting to feel like the theme of the day. Drugs for temporary relief of anxiety, etc.: good. Drugs for recreation: better. Drugs as crutches: BAD!
I realize relying on drugs is bad which is why I quit, I do not plan on starting up again either. Just nvm this isn't helping at all X_x
I think maybe I misunderstood what you were saying. I don't think of pot and 'shrooms as hard drugs (in fact, they're not even drugs; they're a plant and a fungus). When you said, "...and think that hard drugs will be the only thing that will keep me together...." I thought of pharmaceutical grade opiates, probably synthetic. Sorry for the misunderstanding. At times like this, I probably should just say, "I'm sorry, I feel your pain," and then shut up. I wish you well.
its cool, i did mean synthetic drugs when I said hard drugs, but I won't turn to them cause thats no way to live
Getting back to the OP. I think the time you have left with them both should be all you can deal with for now. Enjoy them both now and let the later part come later.
