A pisce's problem I recently fell in love with a girl whom I just found out has an Astrocytomas PRIVATE brain tumor and has been diagnosed with a year to live. My mom has a cancerous tumor growing in her mouth as well and refuses to seek help or treatment, I do not appreciate life and would swap places with either of these 2 in a heart beat. I fear I will not be able to handle what the future holds for me and I guess i'm just looking for insight.
this is very true, although my mom thinks she has been getting better by "megadosing" on acidolphius and shark cartilage I can see she is getting worse, and Sydney (my girlfriend now) messaged me telling me how she had a crush on me in school, we hit it off real well and started dating. When she saw me crying one day she asked why and I explained my mom, she too began crying and made me feel a lump on the back of her head and explained how she simply did not want to date but get off her chest the fact that she liked me. she doesn't think I will be able to handle the strain of losing my mother (a single parent) and a new love. I then explained I wanted to be with her till the end because I planned on going when my mom passed away anyways.
You don't need to be talking like that man. As bad as things are gonna get, there's always hope for some happiness.
I know I'm going to come off as kinda a jerk for saying this as nobody I know is going to die that soon, but everyone dies. You've got to do something to prepare yourself. Seriously, seek counseling. I don't think either your mother or the girl would want you to kill yourself. I highly recommend you check out some basic buddhist philosophy.
