layers of mindfuck that float above your perception in your brain that constantly shield you from 'normal perception', and just walking from here to there you can almost feel this layer of mindfuck floating in your brain that makes you "walk" and "talk" that way. just talking to your friends there it is again, you are distracted by negative energy from the shield as you try to talk through the shield to your friend. the shield seperate you from the real world, your really quite far away. in my room this distant night, i long to once again perceive through direct unfiltered and unshieldered perception. no mindfuck, no distant reality, no negativeity. aigh.
dude, i feel like i understand every bit of that. but im rather sure it dosent make any sence at allll
I thought I would share my mind fuck with you all. I was just setting in a chair. My girlfriend looks at me. says to me what in the fuck is wrong with you. You are falling apart into a million pices she said. I looked at my arm and it was discenergrating. I told her not to worry, Closed my eyes and was fliged into space Seeing the most detailed objects one can only imagine. Here I saw some sort of clock, 3 or 4 rings laying flat with numbers and letters. Then the opened up and rings started to spin with in each other. As this was happing I realized I contraled it. It was time. I controled time. Here I learned time is not one dim. a -> b It is so much more. so much more. Yes time does go from point A to B But it also goes Y and Z Y=up and Z=down. So time is experince. you can either experince nothing and time flys or you can sit there experincing everything with out missing a thing and time will go slow. Everyone can contral time. That is why to one person time flys and to another it was a long day. It's all about how you look at it and what kind of experince you had. Now the question is: Is there time? I say yes. inifity amount so much so it almost seems time doesn't even exitst. I have so many more mind fucks. I have seen things, experince things, felt things, I think no one else has every done. I have been traped in my mind for days and come out go to work like nothing happend. I can control my body and my mind so well. You might think I have an ego. But I have destroyed that. However that did take a while I do have to admit that to start me off at first I did use chemical keys to unlock the doors. But now I don't need keys I can open any door I want at any time and walk through it. Sorry for the bad grammer and spelling. I don't care enough to spell check it.
sometimes i feel like i can feel my soul. like i feel as if this body is actualy just a costume and im looking through a mask. my consciousness is dying to break free of my physical limitations but can only watch and observe the world
interesting. I Currently however am working with the concept that "Time" as it is, does not exist. completely internally it may "exist" in as much as sub-perception of some aspect of some part of some Abstraction of some thing or process, but it is much the same as any other completely arbitrary measurement. externally however, non existant. it is only anything when it is percieved subjectively. some may argue it is the process of decay, but again, they are taking a linear approach to the table, and that is always going to lead to the same places, in the same ways. for a clumsy attempt at me trying to explain something: everything that ever has, ever was, ever will be all happened instantaneously (in the litteral sense, no time) , and will eternally (in the litteral). is what currently i am working with, trying to get a feel of both the essence and the structure, without getting to caught up in one more than the other.
butt, how can we imagine somthing, unless it exists. what i mean is, if we can imagine somthing, than it has to exist somwhere "outthere", because, where do we retrieve it from. what i mean is, what we cant imagine, doesnt exist. for us too imagine it than it has to exist, in this ball of energy we call reality and its contents. i mean we have to be imagining it out of somthing, its origin. it comes from the single ball of energy which is existence, thats where we retrieve it from. and ultimatly, were all connected to this ball. shit, im scaring myself. there is no such thing as time, just endlessly vibrating particles of a ball of energy which is existence. which we 'the particles' are moving, and the particles around us are moving as also. to time travel we just need to re-erange the particles back to the way they were, the particles vibrating sooo randomly the same particle pattern (time) is very unlikly to happen again. you me, and all matter are just everchanging particles that arent changing in time, but are just changing endlessly as one. time is just the movement of the particles. sooo, if somehow we could manipulate the particles to arrange the same distinct pattern again, we could theroetically recreate that "time". fuuck however, you must understand the particles arent moving in time. the particles of pure energy are endlessly "vibrating" in a non-time interval. there vibrating endlessly as one where time doesnt exist. in conclusion : "time" to us, is just the pattern of the intact particles of "vibrating" energy moving in a non-time interval.
yeah you're right.what you sense is waht I actually have seen many times.it looks like black electrically charged particles, drove thru a big cloud and the windows were closed and it was like I was spitting out sand. I see waves of clouds of it float thru my brain when I close my eyes too.I'm like what the fuck..when is this stuff gonna respect my space? Didn't used to be this way before 1997-2000, there has been a disturbance in the force Luke;0
LOL Peter you need to listen to Awaken by Yes, you would love it (That is, if you haven't heard it already ) You have some nice ideas, but you seem pretty confused by your own perception. What you seem like you mean, is like vibrations that make up everything at the most basic level, are like music, with a conductor making them move in a pattern, so life is like a endless symphony of energy? So maybe you can hit rewind and play the big song backwards, then listen to your favorite part again. OR, you could wait until the album is finished and hope someone hit's play so you can hear the WHOLE thing That's what cameras are for though
i havent heard that one. im going to download it for sure. Your right, im pretty confused. The possibilities, and depths of understanding are what would seem endless. im trying to stop thinking 24/7 about the creation of the universe, and the trillions of questions that surround it, ITs driving my nut in. im actually taking a break, to help gather my thoughts and gain perspective. While taking drugs its too easy to slip into certain charachters or have certain ideas and beliefs far from reality or what one would assume normal thinking. its only when you take time out and look back that you gain from what youve learnt. i look back now and think how far reality and 'fantasy' really merges while you do drugs. Not that i dont belive what i have learnt, i will allways belive it.
