Something that's been on my mind...

For quite some time now.

When it comes to thinking about my life and future, I can envision a few paths for myself to follow. One of these is basically living in an apartment somewhere, working a mediocre job, having little to no life watching tv/videogames whilst getting high.

I'm aware of most of, or maybe all of the negatives of that situation...but sometimes when I think about it, it makes me feel very comfortable.

I'm not a complete anti-social or anything like that. I do enjoy going places and socializing sometimes, so I'm not necessarily talking about being a complete hermit.

I think, no...know I would much prefer to live up to my full potential (which I believe is moderately high at least), but there's just something within my psyche that keeps calling me to down that other path.

Just for informative purposes, I'm 21 years old, haven't done college yet (although I just did take my first 2 classes this summer), and have basically just been working full time, in my own apartment(s) since I was about 19.

Can anyone relate, or maybe help to clear my confused mind?

 

Yes, I can relate. Very well. Only thing I can think to tell you is find what you REALLY like to do and pursue it.

 

yeah man too right, and trust me the ONLY way to do that is to lay off the pot, clear your head and set out what you actually want and don't want (because let's face it, pot alters the perception and makes things more enjoyable than they nromally would be without it..)

can i ask, how often do you smoke pot? is it daily?

 

Well, I used to smoke daily...for probably a couple of years. But over the last 6 months, I've cut down A LOT. I haven't even smoked for about a month.

 

As tempting as it may be to do the whole 'hermit' thing... I say at the very least get a couple years of college under your belt... it's amazing how much direction that gives you, no matter what you study. I was like that for a long time too, not sure what I wanted to do with my life, what to study, what to do...

 

Currently the "hermit" way of life you describe is what I do. Monday to Friday I work, go home to my apartment and stay there, cleaning, cooking, and playing on the internet. Friday thru Monday morning, I'm with my boyfriend.

But I have had the opposite sensation -- I am DYING to figure out what it is that I'm here to do. I soooo want to escape the 9-5 lifestyle and find whatever it is that has meaning in my life. I've met the man I wanted, now I just need the life I am supposed to live. It kills me to waste another week at work, but until I figure it out... *shrug*

 

I'm a hermit, except...*sigh*
If you want the mediocre job in todays world..You most likely won't get to have your pot too. Because of government incentives to drug test employees.

 

Nothing wrong with not wanting to do the whole college thing. I have done it, hated the outcome and now work in a field that does not require any college.


What you do to make yourself happy is what you need to deal with not how the world views you and your choices.

If your happy with a little apartment, some quiet time, a job you enjoy that makes your needs what the hell do it.

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