Good Bye

Lately I've been thinking a lot about life. Where I am, where I've been, where I could go. But really it all just sums up to the point, that I am alone. There has never been anyone that has ever understood, or really... loved me. It just feels like no matter how much I try to be a good person and do my best in life, I'm still a fuck up. Really, it feels like it's not worth it, and it's not. It's just pain and sadness, for more pain, and more depression. I don't think I'll see any of you again, and I'm sorry. I'd just like to say goodbye. Peace.

 

later. dont let that lighter burn you on your way out

 

typical

 

Your 15...You shouldn't feel that way.

 

Lol ur a teenager, oozing with emotions.... ya deal with it

 

I'm 15 and I've suffered through 8 of it with severe depression. From the age of 4-7 I was severly beaten by my father regularily. Last fall I tried to kill myself by taking 5 Valuum and 2 dozen tylenol. All of you are very ignorant and not one of you hippies.

 

dont kill yourself, theres no point...

and if you do...

dont announce it to the forums to bring everyone down


I'll just say that by taking your life, you eliminate all possibilities of happiness in the future (no shit, obviously). deal with your demons in a shrinks office, not on some internet forum with a bunch of sarcastic stoners who dont give a shit what happens to you.

 

The only reason I decided to say this, is because my t doc (therapist) cancelled all future appointments with me. Pretty good sign that i'm fucked

 

I'm sorry to hear that you've had such a rough time, but I truly believe suicide is not the best option.
A couple of years ago, I was very depressed and tried to kill myself. I failed. Gradually my life has gotten better and I'm quite happy now. I am so grateful all the time that I didn't die because I never would have been able to experience this relief from depression. I honestly didn't think it would ever get better but it did. And I hope the same will happen for you.

I hope this helps.

 

you think i've been smoking weed since i was seven?

 

You're 15. Shit will most definitely pass no matter how shitty the shit is. Patience is golden

 

it's not that i want to die, it just don't want to feel like shit every hour of everyday. i've got 4 hits of shitty acid, so i'm going to get fucked up instead

 

this sounds more like a cry for attention to me.. if you were leavin the forum why are you still replying.

yes it be hard to get pass a childhood like that but you got ur entire life ahead of you.. No point in livin through pain from the past.... should let it go light a blunt and wonder what lurks ahead.

But whateva happens is upto you.

 

That acid will just make shit worse.Why do you wanna fuck up your mind at such an early age?Stay away from that shit.

 

This thread shouldn't be in the stoners section,more like the mental problems sec..

 

Why dont u try to make things better for yourself rather then just mope around and comtemplate suicide?

even a fuckin crack head can become happy and successfull with their life, you just sound like you've given up when u havent even tried.

and yea your right, i'm not a fuckin hippy

 

15 is mostly the height of the shittiness, as my wise grandmother always said,
"This too shall pass." and it will.

You've got to learn that
a. life is a series of problems - the point of focus is how you react
b. happiness comes and goes, but joy comes from within
c. you'll never feel loved until you learn to love yourself
d. love many, trust a few but always paddle your own canoe - don't put your happiness in others, you'll be forever disappointed
e. expectation is the root of all disappointment
f. suicide only causes more problems for the people who love you and those who will have to clean up the mess - be considerate of others if you want them to be considerate of you
g. live in the now - keep it in the now
h. you're in your own way, so just step aside and let yourself get through this
i. the heart crosses the abyss the mind creates
j. failure is actually the required steps of success - failure isn't forever, it's not terminal, when one door slams shut, instead of looking down and indulging in a pity part look up and around, be liberated from the confines you've created and you'll see the window of opportunity that opens when the door slams in your face - but it's only there for those willing to look up for it

h.- when you look down you just miss all of the good stuff - (Ani DiFranco parapharsed)
j. there's so much life to be lived, so many wonderful people to meet and fun things to do - don't get so self absorbed in your current situation that you can't see the big picture because you're focusing on the negative.
k. you become what you focus on - the human essence developes - it takes many years to become what you will become, but you have the largest influence in that.
l. life is about choices, you choose your own course, you create your you as you grow into yourself
m. teen years that suck = adult years that rock
n. try contributing, doing good things and you'll have less time and energy to indulge these destructive thoughts because you will have focused your energy into another direction, volunteer, find out how deeply some other people hurt and maybe by volunteering in a soup kitchen or other outreach services you'll recognize that not all of God's children are given the same chances and to be a responsible citizen and reap the internal rewards for your service to human kind you must do the best you can with what you've got.

Peace, Love and Light - live long enough to become an adult, life gets so much better in the 20s, so much better, it's like a different life you'll miss out on, why end it when there's so much to be done so much future ahead.

 

maybe you should become a goth...

 

Emo. not goth...

anyways dude i know life can get very depressing. later in life(i hope) you will see that there are alot more problems you need to deal with other than thinking about the past. i could tell you my life story which you would probably want to kill youself just thinking about. but i dont like to even think about it anymore and you shouldn't either. life's a bitch and you gotta keep her in check

 

Dude need's to man up and stop this baby shit. My post was still the best lol