I am completely out for myself. I have no sense of duty, obligation, or such to any family, community, nation, group, individual, or anything besides myself. I am the sole grand ruler of my life. This is because I see obligations, duties and conventional ethics as forms of manipulative control techniques. It has long been apparent to me that "morality", debt, and the like are little concepts utilized by those with heinous goals as psychological leashes to keep people under their dominance (For example: If you are taught at a young age that "serving the master" is the morally right thing to do, and that disagreement is morally wrong, then you will be kept on a mental leash far more effective than physical force) Thing is, I have a set of values, ethics, goals and the like. But given there are no sufficiently like-minded individuals (that I have ever found), it boils down to me having to center my life around myself. Or rather, to illustrate my point: If you're a Communist living in a Nazi world, do you feel any moral obligation or connection or caring for Nazis? As a result, pure selfishness has long been set in.
The world is a selfish place. If you're not in it for yourself, who the hell would you be in it for? My boyfriend once told me, "You can try to please whoever you want, but in the end, you're only responsible for yourself. You're the only person in charge of keeping you happy and you should come in front of anyone else." I may seem extraordinarily selfish sometimes, but fuck it, the world's hard and it's every man for himself. I can't waste my time trying to care for myself and 20 others.
A Communist living in a Nazi world would have to hope that the Nazis change, and if they didn't want to be sent to a death camp they wouldn't tell they were a Communist. Things change and society gets smarted though. Fortunately, we don't live in a Nazi world. Fascism is doomed to failure, even though its having mild success now, its still doomed. Everyone is really out for themselves. Thats why the world sucks so much. The moment we try to work together someone undercuts someone else. It makes life so difficult.
I agree, partially. The sad thing is, the fact that so many other people are out for themselves pretty much forces people (such as myself) into a similar mode as a survival mechanism. Of course, there's also the fact that I hold a strange combination of viewpoints and values that pretty much excludes me from any group or movement currently in existence, leaving me isolated. If I were to participate in any kind of group or movement that has needs larger than my own, it would (depending on group) almost certainly require me to do things that seriously bother my conscience.
I struggle with this at times, feeling forced to be a certain way because everybody else is. And being a sucker is no better. Karma is definitely not doing her job or things would be different.
