i just need to get all these emotions out

this is what my heart is wanting to say..

i beleived in you
i beleived that you could overcome this
i beleived
that she would grow up
without any harm being done to her
you promised me
you promised
everything would be ok
that she would be ok
that you would never leave me
you said that everything was great
and i had nothing to worry about
but now
everything has fallen apart
you werent just my brother
you were my hero
my rock
the one i knew would love me no matter what
but now
i cant help but hate you so much
it hurts me
youve hurt me
youve hurt your own child
youve hurt your entire family
but most of all
you have taken away my hero
my rock
my shining light
where did adam go?
i want him back!!
i want him back!!
please bring him back
i cant stand him being so far away
hes locked up inside these walls
hes created
and now
hes locked up behind these man-made bars
shes in the hospital
and its all your fault
what will we tell her
when she grows up?
how could we ever explain what has happend
to her
it never should have happend
you werent supposed to let it happen!!!
you were supposed to follow God
and stay away from drugs
youve broken my heart
that little girl
lying in that hospital bed
is breaking my heart
it seems
as if
it cant be anymore broken
that it is now
i tried to forget it
but i cant
ill miss you
ill never see you
and that kills me
ill miss you forever
ill miss your smile
and your warm hugs
your laugh
and your beautiful red hair
that youve always loved so much
you told me to keep my chin up
but now your the one
who has yanked it back down
ill always love you
no matter what
and as she grows up
ill see you everyday
in her smile
in her eyes
in her laughter
and in her hair
you will be there

 

i feel like hugging people

 

well its a true story poem. soooooo, it makes me want hugs too lol