my first sex, he is straight

He is straight but still wanted to have sex with me when knowing im gay. I didnt do it with him coz I thought it would be not nice to be with a straight guy for the 1st sex. After a while, I decided to have sex with him because hes just so nice and i do like him and want to do it with him. So why shouldnt i just do it, thats what i thought.

The sex was awful. And now im obssessed being a really bad partner in sex.

He is a great straight guy. Hes very kind, smart and goodlooking. His dick is fantastic and it tasted really sweet. He kissed really good. He helped me to experience gay sex(kissed, gave head to me). He tried to do anything to make me feel. He hugged me tight, really tight coz he knew gays just loved that.

I performed really badly. I didnt get hard. I didnt feel it, the sensation. (althought i like him, and he was really nice to me). I was not into it, the sex. I was so passive, kept questioning myself why didnt i feel a thing...and i didnt feel it at all.

With his dick in my hand, im my mouth...I should have so felt it...Because that was what I had been thinking about before the sex.

I tried to think why I was like that having sex with him. I realized that I was kinda shy. I was scared of showing who i was in sex to him. I felt the distance coz i was so aware of his being straight.

well, first sex is usually not great...it is terrible for my case, actually.

I just so want to ask him for a second time.I like him and I want to have good memory in sex with him instead of this terrible feelings being a bad sex partner. Now, the distance that i felt is gone. I hope that he doesnt hate doing that with me now.

 

He'll be fine, first boyfriend I had we had pretty ropey sex at first because I was really self-conscious about my body, but he seemed okay to let me take my time.
I'm sure this guy will probably be understanding if he knows you never did it before.

 

Hey Eric,

Do not sweat it. The first time is always very difficult. Besides, it did not help that your partner kinda declared himself as str8 (but had not problems with sucking on your dick. Those str8 dudes, these days...)

Now, that the ice is broken, go for it again. Do not worry too much about the first experience and try to enjoy your buddy

KD

 

thank you for you replies, friends!

Can i ask something...quite sensitive?

How long can you stay hard...i mean..really hard if there is no more phisical or mental stimulation? My str8 guy, he stayed really hard for like more than an hour (even when i didnt give him any physical stimulation and neither did him)...

For me it seems like possible! if im aroused in the right way...just a couple of minutes. if there is no more stimulation (phisical or pictural or pornal or...), a couple minutes later...its not hard any more...Do i have erection problem?

 

haha...im so sure abt my sexual orientation. I still dont have any sexual feelings for girls and I just a couple days ago, i still had a lot of desires for guys. After my first sex, i just dont feel that a lot anymore for guys..except that str8 guy that i had my 1st sex.

 

Possibly. It's more likely that you were just nervous though. As soon as you start getting self-conscious in bed, your erection is pretty much the first thing to go. I'm sure if you do it again you'll be fine. I certainly wouldn't re-write how you feel about your sexuality just because of one sexual encounter, and definitely not your first. Shit, I still have those feelings on occasion, and I've been out for a good six years.

Either way, I wouldn't read too much into it. Worry and stress are far more likely to be causing your problem than anything biological, and the last thing you want to do is add to that.