On the brink of something awful...

I have bipolar spectrum disorder. I was just diagnosed and begining to manage it when I met my husband. I got pregnant and had to stop my medicines. Luckily for me pregnancy stabilised me, in fact made me more stable than I'd been in a very long time. Now my baby is going on 8 months and the shit is shifting and I am powerless to do anything. For the last few months I've slowly begun to cycle again. This time, with my new knowledge, I've been able to understand what is happening and therefore avoid a TOTAL meltdown just yet. But I'm not superwoman! I've been quietly urging my husband to give me the money to pay off my shrink so I can continue treatment. He's been ever so cooly BLOWING ME OFF! Last week or so has been particularly bad. Can't sleep. Vivid dreams, restlessness. Wakefullness is getting more and more fractured. I'm getting snappy. It's affecting how I interact with my baby. That's just not cool! Despite the fact that we make more than enough money to deal with this easily, I am having to wrestle with him over it. I have no access at all to our money. HE thinks I need to suck it up and just DECIDE TO GET BETTER......OH MY GAWD! What am I to do?????I need help!!!

I feel brittle
crisp
like the last piece of cake
left on the plate
and the man with the saran is being too frugal
I wonder what he'll think when
he tries to take a bite
I wonder if he likes
stale cake?

 

Exercise is the least you can do

 

That's really a horrible situation. I would try to educate him as much as possible on mental illness (get stuff off the web). Once he sees it's a real thing that requires real medical attention, he will not just tell you to decide to get better. That's horrible.