Anxiety/depression cured...now it's back??

I was pretty depressed & unfocused before I started smoking marijuana. I wasn't sure if me being unfocused was due to being depressed or because I have ADD. Regardless, I came out of my stupor, & was happy, carefree, & intense on learning everything I could. Then...do to a very stupid decision, I started doing the "white stuff". (not sure if I should write it out??) I did it almost everyday for a week. The next week I would do smaller amounts during weekdays, & bigger amounts during the weekend. Finally, during the fourth week, when I would come down at night & smoke weed, I would start having anxiety/panic attacks. I felt like I couldn't breathe & that my heart was beating much quicker than it should. Sometimes after a night of smoking, the next morning I would try my other stuff again, but the same process would repeat. So I quit for a couple of weeks & tried it again thereafter. It seemed like if I didn't smoke for a while, then I wouldn't be affected. But I finally realized what crap it was, considering I used to work out a lot, ate right, & was a pretty healthy person. So, I haven't touched the stuff for two months now. But unfortunately, now I am having a very difficult time smoking again. I will start to worry about my heartrate again & I have become very paranoid. Any noises I hear in my home really scares me & I believe someone lives above me or I am surrounded by ghosts. Sometimes I will be happy again, sometimes I will be very negative. So I stopped smoking for about two weeks & tried it again last night. I got so scared because I wasn't sure how it would affect me, & my heartrate started racing again. It's all due to a fear, but this fear is pointless because I know nothing is hurting me. I'm excercising again, eating healthy, etc. & I shouldn't have any physical problems. The only problem I DO have is allergies, which causes me nasal congestion, therefore I can't breathe as well. I don't know what to do anymore & I am very upset because I use to smoke everyday & was perfectly fine doing so. It helped me focus & to actually start doing things & to not be depressed. I did take birth control pills for awhile, but stopped doing so it was reported of causing anxiety/depression. I don't take any drugs now, so marijuana was my only drug that assisted me. Sorry this is so long but I hope someone can help me so that I can start smoking again.

 

i had the same problem i had panic attack because of coke, i had a fear that my heart was messed up or it would beat to fast, i quiot pot for about 8 months adressed my anxeity disorder then started smoking weed again now i dont have any problems and i smoke daily

 

How did you adress your anxiety issue?

 

Your problem is you have come to relate smoking to these panick attacks. It may sound strange but you have already decided your going to have one before you've started.Try reading some NLP Neural Linguistic Programming. You will be able to change your believe systems so eventually you will know your going to enjoy a smoke and once again associate it with having a good time. Theres a good technique called dropping anchors. Type NLP into google and learn some quick techniques to take control of your feelings. Its very modern thinking and does work.

 

When you talk about being depressed such as this, "I was pretty depressed & unfocused before I started smoking marijuana. I wasn't sure if me being unfocused was due to being depressed or because I have ADD.", it leads me to think that you use weed for the same reason many of us do.......we need something to help us feel better. Depression can kill ya.....along with anxiety....However over medication with weed can cause a new set of problems....memory loss.....lack of drive....isolation...etc