adderall/ problems with social interaction?

First off let me say that my whole life I’ve had ADD and hated it. I did horrible in school, I mean even though I would try my hardest to pay attention, I just couldn’t most of the time. I was always criticized by my parents and teachers because they thought that I just didn’t give a damn about paying attention. Though even though I struggled, I still tried to pay attention. I remember when I was a kid, especially, I would always go off day dreaming about weird shit all the time. Perhaps the day dreaming is for the most part the cause of it, but there is also something else. When I’m trying to pay attention to something my mind will just not be able to stay willingly focused on it even though I want to. It’s like my mind, during this time, is pushed aside, just blank. Like I can’t comprehend for the life of me, for instance a whole statement given by someone. It just doesn’t register. Another example is like when I’m reading something I’ll read a sentence and just completely not be able to understand what I just read, and will reread it several times before I finally can. On the other hand if I’m interested in something I’m doing I can pay excellent attention.

So I finally went to the doctor and told her my symptoms , and she pretty much right off the bat though Adderall in my face. When I first started taking it I noticed no change in my ability to pay attention. Probably because it was only 10mg. So I went back and got it upped to 15mg. Then like a miracle I was able to pay awesome attention and be able to have feelings of interest in things I wasn’t interest in before like math est. I pulled my grades up from F’s and D’s to pretty much all A’s in a matter of days. I’ve been taking it for two years now and have done extraordinarily well the whole time. Though thee has been a big down side to it. Slowly but surely ever since I have been taking it I have had extreme difficulty with social interaction especially with someone I don’t know. It’s like when I try to talk to someone just the way I talk, and my coordination to are just FUCKED! I usually make an ass out of myself and then get extremely anxious, and yes I’ll admit it even when talking to girls. So because of this I don’t have many friends, especially as many as I had before I took adderall. It’s like I set and watch other people talk with other people and their coordinations are just as smooth and as nice as they want them. With me on the other hand I will get extremely frustrated and embarrassed even though I know it is for no reason. Sometimes I’ll even get so anxious that I’ll have ticks and twitches in my face, and try to avoid looking into peoples eye’s when I talk to them because that can trigger a tick. I NEED HELP but if it is the adder all which I’m feel almost positive it is I don’t want to stop taking it because of it’s positive effects if my life, yet I feel if I stop I will be back to normal socially anyways. I don’t know what to do, and I don’t won’t to tell my psychologist about this because I fear see will just take the adderall away and be of no help to my problem. It would be really really good if I can find some kind of medicine that works to treat social anxiety disorder, as I guess you would call it.



Can anyone help me?

 

dude its totally the adderrall. i went to through the same thing a few years back. and it took me til this january to have a decent relationship. adderrall sux. expecially the sociological side effects and the fact that it will turn u into a drone. and can take u a very long time to recover.

 

But what about the extreme positive effects it has for me. Is it worth going back to not being able to pay attention?

Also do you have ADD , because if not then I can see pretty much only negative effects for you if you don‘t. My mean question is, is there any medicine I can take to help and still take the adderall , or would the adderall fuck up its effects.

 

if its worth it to pay attention for you, which it wasnt for me but w/e. then keep takin it and learn a whole bunch of crap cuz u will definetly be able to. go to college and when u decide to stop taking it, learn to be social again... .or start smokin pot. cuz that will work too. plus adderall and pot is a really cool high

 

Agreed.
I noticed the opposite Social affects.

 

talk to your doc about it, maybe you can tweak the dose again

also, have you looked into dietary intervention for the add? have you tried cutting all the chemicals out of your diet? a lot of pple find relief from both add and anxiety by adjusting diet

 

No, not with me. Mixing pot and adderall is even worse, i make an even bigger ass out of myself because i don't shut the fuck up about stupid shit.

 

I think i'll just go to a psychiatrist like insanejester said.

 

Its obvious you know its the adderall, and from what Ive read I think it is too. Insane jester is pointing you in the wrong direction. Youre an FDA approved tweaker my friend. You appear to have developed a healthy dependency too, as you are terrified of the doc taking away your pills. I've been there, which is what made me eventually stop filling the scripts. Of course adderall has positive effects, amphetamines make you feel euphoric and diminish worry and regard to consequences. But youre experiencing the negative psychological effects of long term daily use, and also the physiological with the uncontrollable body movements. Let me guess, you cant go anywhere or do anything unless you took a pill? My advice would be to get yourself off the speed, and go to a talk therapist that isnt going to try to pump you full of poisonceutical "medications". Start exercising, and maybe try some things like yoga or acupuncture. You will get a grip on everything. Social problems included. Just give yourself some time to grow and recover, and get yourself away from drugs like stimulants and antidepressants.

 

I was under the impression aderall was discontinued due to heart problems... I can see it causing anxiety though