Dear observers, I'm a lost optimist, a crawling compilation of molecules, a conscious ape, a shaman, musician, poet, lover and loved one And simply, I cannot live in the city anymore. Where, in CA can I go to just live... just BE, by a river, or the ocean, with others who understand this concept? I can not live the city life any more. It wrings me with hands dipped in gasoline and death.
Hitchhike, look around, explore... where to find settled folks who are compatable? I dunno, but I certainly suggest travel. I'm sure there're plenty of nice lakes and rivers in CA, there are in mine. (Get it, 'cause I live in Canada, so it has the same initials as California... HAHAHA!!!) Or don't... apparently it's ruined my sense of humour.
i want to move to the city. i live in the subs; i want to move out of my mother's house. i want to grow up. moving would help. moving by myself..though money would be tight for quite some time
Yeah, money is "tight" Fucking money, paper, stupid manifestation from our past. I WOULD gather food in nature, but look outside- Cars, concrete, Churches. I wonder what fox tastes like! Most of the food I consume is stolen, aquired from places that wouldn't expect my tall lanky ass to steal from them. Some people make me feel bad for it, but what else am I supposed to do? I was just born, I woke up one day at about 13 and wondered what the fuck I was doing here. I know i'm not supposed to be in this madness, but Free Will does not exist. To every action there is an equal and opposite reaction, therefore everything we think and do are just chemical reactions reacting to actions. And so on, Thus, I was always going to sit here, I was always going to type this, you were always going to read this, and I have no idea what's next.
heh. ifeel the same way. theres this thing where i think about the kind of life that is nurturing and good but it seems that for me anyway reality is that i am stuck in the city and the only thing i can do is learn to love these assholes that only care about material things. those that say you can manifest wharever you want in life-- i mean does that mean that those millions killed in a genocide just didn.t realize they could have been living somewhere else and have plenty of money. i know that maybe if you are able to adapt well you might be able to move somewhere that has more open space but everyone i know who has a place in the country or whatever has some kind of job. i would be glad to hear of alternatives myself. bobbeefree
i thought the wonderful "lost" TV show too anywaz i like the way you use your language stalk *i really don't know why this statement makes me feel strange* anywaz for me i think i enjoy living in a city because you have the chance of meeting knew people, close to recreation activities and i also like the fact that it seems like something is always going on. well then again there is always con's of living a city life, just like the con's and postive aspects of countryside life
