it seems that unless i've recently been in contact with a few beers or a joint i just cant be myself. when im sober im just a downer and dont feel like talking. but when im not sober people love to be around me and i have fun. what the fuck is wrong with me?
I look at it the complete opposite. When you are sober you are acting yourself and not some unstable loonie. When you are under the influence you don't really care about anything, thus you do everything without fear.
It's because you probably smoke and drink a lot. If you smoke and drink, that can affect you when you're sober because both are downers and can affect your brain both chemically and physically...it doesn't affect you in a good way, either.
i dont mean i get wasted to have fun im just saying when i have enough to loosen me up alittle is when i have a better time.
There is nothing wrong with you. If you like getting screwed up just to have a better time, that is up to you.
im gonna be completly honest- that is a bad sign. im not gonna try to say your situation but i have a problem with a particular substance and when ever i would stop i have felt exactly that... like i no longer was "myself" had things to say was interesting etc.... that was actually one of my main quelms about quitting.... and i dont know you situation like i said and wont pretend to but know if you are using too much of something or even nothing too much but lots of things now and then, after time it will go away and you'll feel interesting and yourself again but it takes more time then you might think (a month isnt enough)
