are you happy where you are?

Coz.. my life is just so fucked up right now.

 

man today is a bad day life is so shitty sometimes I know what you mean.
I hope everything works out if ya ever wanna talk pm me

 

Whats annoying you Kosmic?

 

aww, that's really beautiful of him to have done

 

yea it was. even though his ring didn't fit me, i wore it all weekend.

he told me before the ceremony he'd allow me to wear his field ring, and he would wear his dress ring (gold ring). i broke down at the ring ceremony, i just couldn't deal iwth all the emotions and he made my day by allowing me to wear his ring.

 

sounds like a great friend

 

very happy. im nearly finished my degree and even though im not sure im ready to leave uni yet it will be cool to have graduated. i like my job, its easy and pays well, and they want to get me in more photo shoots, although i decided i didnt really want to do modelling but it might lead to some kind of acting which would be awsome coz ive always wanted to act. im with someone and we couldnt be more perfect for each other. we are so inlove its sickening and somewhat unbelievable. i just got back from a beach holiday with him and im feeling pretty damn good. ill be off on a road trip soon with some friends and then ill be turning 21 which will mean loads of drinking and dancing.

 

If I'm Not Working...I'm at College Studying...


I Have No Social Life...

Three Years of my Life I Have Wasted...And Somehow I Can Never Catch up to What I've Missed Out on...

Sometimes I Wonder...Why Bother...To Spend All my Life Working...Studying...It Would Seem...With Never Enough Money to Go Around...

If and When I Get into Uni...That's Another 5 Years Until I Get my Degree...And Then What...

What Then?

Urgh...Another Five Years Living Like This...Does Not Seem too Hot an Idea...But Neither Does Working Forever in the Crappy Jobs That I Have...

I Need to Get Out of This Town...There is Nothing for me Here...

Failure is What I Feel...Inadequate...

I Don't Know What I Want in Life...But I Don't Feel Entirely Satisfied at this Moment of Time...

Loneliness...Bothers Me...

Traveling is What I Want to Do...But That Costs Time and Money...Neither of Which I Can Afford to Lose...

There must be More to Life than This...

...

 

): I completley understand. Sometimes I just wanna leave it all and move countries and live off my relatives but then I remember that I don't have enough in my bank account for a plane ticket to england d: so I go back to work and class

 

Dope'll get ya thru Times of no money
better than
money'll get ya thru Times of no dope.
--Someone Wise.

Try the words
'Family' or 'Health or 'Happiness' or 'Peace of Mind' / 'career'.

Don't Think it can't happen.
Just one of the many miscalculations I've made......

 

mudpuddle, with all due respect, I'd suggest valuing your life right now, do not let it go by while you are fixated on some far off goal that you are going to reach,

 

"All good things in all good time".......................



~namaste~

 

sometimes...