I didn't smoke or take anything...just estatically high on life. I got another job offer today that would be very personally fulfilling and twice what I am making now and ten-thousand more a year then the job I am starting in May...money isn't important to me I just can't believe how fast one's carreer can pick-up just from a college degree. I assumed I would always be broke while working in non-profits but now at 24 years old I am just damn will be making almost as much as my mother does and she's an engineer. I am just suprised as I am such a goof-off and so not a grow-up and am ditzy and chubby and insecure and blonde and like to party and hate to work and study and now I feel like over the past few months I have become this different person who is capable and finally worthy of the things she is being offered in life and is perfectly content making her own decisions and not needing someone to take care of her and in realizing that I just felt like I smoked a huge yummy bowl and man I wanna smoke d: Anyone else having growing pains/joys?
You are worth the things that you are being offered in life. It's nice to hear you are having a glimpse of that reality. I've been having a tough time. Tonight I actually started a low dose of prozac to help with some of the things going on. I've had horrible back pain for 2 days. Today I've taken more pain pills which I think is contributing to my depression. I need to feel some of that self worth that you are talking about. That's a wonderful feeling. This feeling I am having sucks. When do you start your new job? Do you have to dress any different from the job your leaving? Need a shopping buddy? (I wish)
I'm sorry you're feeling that way ): You're an awesome person and deserve all the worthy feelings in the world from both yourself and others. Check your pm's I don't wanna ask you anything on here that you may not be comftrable sharing. I start my new job May 15th and am debating whether or not to interview for the other one too now...and I got a job offer yesteday from the Chula Vista School District (south san diego) for an adoocate and family law consultant for the district and then an offer for teaching at a private school in La Jolla last week. So I just feel SO OVERWHELMED and unsure. I'll have to wear a suit in my new job): Now I usually just wear suit skirts or pants and sweaters or shirts or the jackets with jeans on causual friday so i don't need any new clothes I just et to wear them all together now d: I am going to go see a stylist in July though because I am finding myself with more and more feelance speaking jobs and I feel a little not as polished as the other women. There's a woman a colleague of mine uses and she comes in your house and goes through your closet and tells you what goes with what and what you need to buy and then goes shopping with you and to the colorist and make-up counter and then sees you again in 3 months to see how you should adjust it for practicality. That shit just sounds crazy to me, but I think it will really help with my self-esteem issues and promoting my career as I really want to work for myself and am almost there just need a few more companies and really see myself being able to do it ina few more years. I am a national trainer now for the company I currently work for and then got another contract last month and will now be a national trainer for my new company as well. all the NT jobs are about four weeks a year so right now I get to work 12 weeks out of the year for myself and just take the time as leave. Part of the reason I am leaving my current job is because my boss says i spend too much of the comapnies time promoting myself, the last place I worked loved PR and my old boss at this job did too. I was suppossed to have an article come out yesterday but it got bumped and I can't help but think it was partially because my boss and our CEO are patriarchal and hate my freaking guts. sighhhhhhhhh...that was long I'm sorry feel free to skim d:
That sounds kinda cool as long as she doesn't pick apart your waredrobe and act like some of the stylist on tv. Those poor women's faces when they want to get rid of their favorite tank top and jean jackets. lol I'm okay with talking about things. I'm looking for solutions. Tonight I took a big step towards that. I need to calm down and losen up the tension. Sometimes I feel I have no control over it. We all get in slumps. Have you talked with anyone who is now working for themselves doing what you do? How long did it take them be able to work for themselves?
no, I don't know anyone who is a conference speaker who works for themselves so I have no one to ask for advice. I'm in a predicament because I can't take on anymore contracts while I am working full-time so it's a hard goal to reach. She's suppossed to be very nice and very patient, which is really good because I'm a mess d:
that happened to me once after atching fear and loathing in las vegas i really wanted to get high after that
