At the risk of sounding completely lame and emo...

Just recently ive begun to daydream about my death. Thinking about dying. I feel very low, yet at the same time feel stupid for feeling low...guilty for worrying my friends, family, partner...troubling them. I realise i should be stronger. Im usually strong. I dont know where this came from or why.
Ive really made a mess up of things.
I feel trapped where i am, but see no way out. I feel like a butterfly trapped in a jar.

Uhm, thats about all really. Sorry, i know its completely stupid.

Xx

 

That's not lame and emo; the magnitude sounds similar to something I've been gone through. Just being eaten away in many different directions at once...

You're being pretty vague; care to discuss some specifics?

 

I used to fantasize a lot about death. Its not stupid at all. I have always found it something my mind used to cope with incredibily difficult circumstances...and it has since gone away, as if the lid was flung open.

 

I think everyone goes through a phase in their life, normally teenage years, of thinking about such thing, thus the term teen angst. Everyone has it as some time to some extent, its just that emos advertise it.

 

That lull i feel comes from the fact that in the bare bones of life you will be forgotten, which in it self means that you don't have to be responsible for your own action i think after a amount of time you just say who cares that i'll be erased from the human race, just living life can be a pleasure when your looking for fun

 

Thanx for the responses people

Have decided to go away for a few weeks...might help to clear my head. Travel does that to me.

Will be back next month, hopefully unsuicidal

Thanx again

Love-Maxi.Xx