wow 2mg's is a lot that would knock me on my ass, I would be asleep for days. How did you get that perscription? I have a perscription for .25 mgs and it takes two if I am really upset over something or having flashbacks. I have post traumatic stress disorder that resulted in memory loss so I get a lot of flashbacks. As the years go on I remmeber nothing that happened to me and anything bad that happenens to me I lose my memory for days afterwards....it's a pain in the ass...not kidding. My worst fear is that I'm going to get fired from work, forget about it and go in the next day and look like a moron. But yeah to answer your question that is a lot of xanax...it's obviously not working for you. Does it make you feel more hyper or anxious by any chance? There's a rare condition where medications affect people adversley.
no i don't get hyper or excited over anything period and the pills have no affect over that(atleaste not with me i guess?), I do get sleepy a few hours after taking them but it usually passes. I've had every anti-depressant in the book, all they do is make me very mean, and cause blackouts, another words they put me in a dangerous state where I may do something I don't need to, the slightest thing will throw me off the wall and I'll be looking to shoot someone, litteraly. Thats why I'm on xanax, nothing else works, and I'm kinda running out of options, I've been perscribed two shitloads of other stuff with no results, plus the factor of being suicidal(with more than 2 noted attempts) is why my doses are this way, and to keep me calm, due to feelings of worthlessness or whatever they call the crap now, my past equals shit, hence the flashbacks. When I am in good moods, I don't even think about my past, or anything else, I don't even need the pills, plus the fact I HATE pills. Its very rare for me to get triggered lately, since everything has been fine, but when its triggered I just fall apart.... and the xanax are failing.
have you seen a psychiatrist or is it your MD who's perscribing these things? Have you tries cognitive therapy? I just started cognitive therapy and it's really hard. God I mean so much work to think about how to de stress and change my behavior rather than just popping a pill, especially when i can't exercise for a couple more months but it's worth it so far. Last night I did something I was way proud of and sacrificed my pride for the sake of honesty and what do you know...it worked out well, which was a postitive reinforcer. So I would work on your behavior as well as taking a pill and set yourself up with positive reinforcers. Like for me if I go this whole month with out cancelling a social affair or not calling a friend back and eat between 2 and 2.5 thousand calories a day 5 days a week and don't go over or under I am going to go put this suit on my BR card that is really cute....sounds silly and stupid but makes me think about my actions as xanax wear off really quickly and are just a temp fix, self-control is harder but permanent and rewarding. As far as pills go have you tried ativan? I get two of those a month as a prn...that's just because an ex boyfriend was really causing me a lot of pain and grief and I needed them to get over things...I still have my two that were given to me this month . But they work if something REALLY crapy happens or you just feel super anxious. I don't have depression or suicidal thoughts though just extreme anxiety and am a horrible perfectionist so maybe what works for me may not for you. Have you tried exercise? I would talk to trish (intervallillusion) she's off meds completley and is very cognitive in her approach and it's working really well for her.
theres a rascist homophobe xanax junkie that is a poster here that could give ya the low down on the hoe down of that shit. but im not sure id believe a word they typed.. luv n lite.
Thanks lynsey, yes I've been to about 6 different ones. They usually can't do anything, they blame my area of living, etc. Ontop of wanting to feed me more meds. I know what I need to do.
): I'm sorry. Lifestyle changes are hard...I need to make some and have made some. I am trying to get out of my job landed an interview for tommorow but yeah it's hard!!!! and scary god it's so scary! But I know it will be worth it. (((((((hugs))))))))
I was hooked on it for years, and after a while the drug just does not work. For me, it started going in reverse. I'd go through fits of rage and panic. You are going to need help getting off of it. It's going to be hard and you are going to feel like shit. It took me almost 2 years to be free of it. I've got 5 years clean. I still go through fits where I want it. You will need a support system. I hope it all works out for you.
