Hi everyone Something weird is happening in me and I need your feedback. I am a 40 year old guy. All my life I lived as a homophobic heterosexual. I was repulsed as any hetero by the idea of contact with other males’ genitals, or any kind of sexual relation to males. About a year ago I started watching gay porn from the Internet, not for enjoyment but just for fun and maybe laughter. Eventually I started going to gays’ chat rooms and listen to the sexual conversations of other gays. To my amazement and through the working of my own imagination I think I am turning by an odd route into a bisexual of sorts and more and more I am becoming curious to experiment sex with another man. Is this weird or does anyone else have had similar experiences? I thought you are born either a hetero or a homo. What is this happening in me? On one hand I am scared and on the other hand these thoughts do not leave me. Did anyone of you have similar experience?
if you feel comfortable, act on your desires, and if not, don't... My situation is pretty different from yours. I have always been attracted to men, even from a very young age. I'm sure there are people who have gone through similiar situations, and I don't think you would have a hard time finding some gay men interested in helping a straight guy experiment. Good luck, and do whatever feels right to you.
I'm in the middle, I don't think I'm gay. I could never see myself in any sort of relationship with another man, but the thought of gay sex turns me on some times. It depends on my mood. Sometimes I think I am bi, and sometimes I think I am straight.
. It sounds like your earlier repulsion was not about other men having sex, but repulsion over repressed desires. No straight man looks at gay porn for shits and giggles. Only somebody who is deeply closeted will try to deceive themselves with the idea that they are going to look at gay porn to laugh at it. If you haven't realized that about yourself yet, I'm not ashamed to be the one to tell you. But if you are aware of where your desires are leading you, there is no need to create a false front in this forum. It sounds like you are interested in investigating a gay experience. There are plenty of gay men who would love to help you out, no strings attached. I'm not like that. Actually, I find it kind of creepy. You don't want to have a relationship with a man but you wouldn't mind getting your dick sucked or vice versa. Sorry guys, but that sounds like the typical bisexual male. My advice. Get your dick wet, but be kind. Find a like minded bi guy, don't lead on some poor queer boy only to break his heart. .
umm hmmm. For the original poster... Are straight people taught to be repulsed by penises or other parts of human anatomy? There sure seems to be a whole lot of extra-curricular conditioning to keep you hets on the "straight and narrow". I guess dialing up and laughing at gay porn is part of Hetero 101 nowadays. I am also stumped by this idea that bisexuality makes it ok to have sex with a man but just not get into a relationship with him. Does that mean you will be gay if you have a relationship with a man, does your bisexuality suddenly disappear and become something else? Or is it just fence sitting? Or is it just to avoid the label of the "unspeakables"?
