I haven't posted any poetry in awhile. Be warned, these next two aren't happy pieces. The thoughts in my head are always spinning out of control and are very conflicting. I have my extreme ups and downs. These two poems are the result of me feeling complete, but not wanting to believe it, and self destructing as a result to a point where I refuse to look at the good in things. So when I'm in this negative mode, these are the kinds of things I feel... "make it disappear" i want to scream, stop, make it go away this pain i feel wreaks havoc upon my day where does it come from and why must it persist creating anger and rage, self destruction i fight to resist as thoughts in my head bring mental torture hope disappears seeking the elusive cure fueling my doubt and creating despair far to damaging to ever repair less and less i continue to care pretending that i was never there i feel so empty with nothing left inside it seems as if i've already died and if it doesn't i believe i want to when something shows me i have no clue turning my world upside down questioning myself, looking around for answers i thought i found only to find i am further bound to my dissapointment, losses and pain why would i even want to remain show me why i even matter or was i never anything at all ©2006, piscean]-[delusions "confliction" i want to believe as i try to doubt it couldn't be true but just might be will i know for sure i may never know as time ticks away answers still evade i want to accept it but tell myself i can't what am i running from or where was i going i haven't a clue anymore when i was once so sure fighting myself and what i believe in order to save the emotion of my heart and soul. ©2006, piscean]-[delusions thanks for tuning in.
I know how you feel, man. I get into these kinds of moods myself. Just keep on keepin' on and remember the things that you love and want to accomplish. It's good to empty ourselves of these kinds of emotions. They can really make great poetry, too Later man, Ben.
