for the first time in my life somone knows everything, all my dark secrets, all my flaws and it's way liberating. I feel like an Afghani who was stripped of her birka and is now naked and exposed but her audience does not judge the flaws of her naked body or mind but rather embraces them and shares their own in return. This is the first time in my life I have felt no judgement and without the judgement I finally feel like who I am is okay and being just okay and normal is wonderful, ordinary is extraordinary. and ya know what? I do kinda like the smell of wine and cheap perfume...and cigarettes to mmmmmm a cig would be so good right now.
because I was on codeine and decided to share everything yesterday...and it was beneficial and 'a good thing' and I want to know if anyone else has anyone in their life who knows EVERYTHING about them?
I've had some majoy changes and epiphanies in my life recently, and now I'm not ashamed of anything I do or think or feel anymore- I feel like I can finally be totally open and honest with other people. Now, I have some a friend that I'm very open with, and I can basically talk to her about almost anything. I think the only thing that would be uncomfortable would be explicit sexual details, but thats more cuz she's a bit uncomfortable talking about it. I'm so pumped for my next serious relationship- I feel like I'm finally ready to be completely vulnerable, honest, sincere, and open. It's really and truly liberating to know that I'm able to connect with other people on that level, and fulfilling in a very deep and fundamental way.
that's how I feel like I'm finally ready to open up well I already have and the friendship first before hand thing is just awesome. I think the fact that I did not intend to develop these feelings makes it all the more cooler.
Well, that's how it should always happen, I think. You can fuck things up trying to force things or by expecting a certain outcome. I just got out of a serious relationship, and I think I'm going to make a point to just make friends and be myself, and when the opportunity for something more is there it'll happen naturally. That's good advice, thanks for reminding me!
ugh. i did that. and got screwed over. i totally let my guard down and it ended in disaster. so NOW i'm scared. whereas i never was before!!!! shit! I'm so pumped for my next serious relationship- I feel like I'm finally ready to be completely vulnerable, honest, sincere, and open. It's really and truly liberating to know that I'm able to connect with other people on that level, and fulfilling in a very deep and fundamental way.[/QUOTE]
