I Remember When

I Remember When

I remember long ago,
How I let myself live such lies.
And I remember how I just
Flowed with the crowd,
And told myself countless times
I?d change my ways eventually.
I remember when I fell so low,
That I could no longer see the light
And how I didn?t have you
To raise me up again.
I remember wanting what
Everyone had with you,
But being to afraid to ask.
And I remember how I cried
Myself to sleep at night,
Wondering if you had given up on me
Because I had waited so long.
I remember not wanting
To get out of bed on Sundays,
Because that meant having to face you.
I remember thinking of how you
Must be so disappointed in me
Because I refused to come to you
When I really needed you the most.
I remember when I almost gave in
To thinking I would always
Be like this?

But I also remember
When I finally decided
To stop lying to myself.
I remember when I realized
That if I didn?t change my ways now,
I never would and how I
Would forever lose what
I could have had with you.
I remember crying silently
As I asked you to forgive me
For waiting so long to come to you.
I remember praying that you?d
Still take me in as one of your own.
And I remember how I felt
After you came into my heart,
And relieved me of all my sin and troubles,
Like a great weight had just
Been lifted from my shoulders.
I remember the sense of peace
You filled me with
And how you still fill me
With that same peace today.
I remember how you gave me the strength
To forgive people of their wrongs,
And how I learned to
Forgive myself for mine.
I remember how I thought
You?d never be there when I needed you?
But here you stand beside me still today.