i think one of the worst feelings in the whole world...

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awwww

i miss two people right now.... one of them i talk to sometimes and one of them i havent talked to in a while.. he called me but i dont know if i should call back or not. it's someone that goes WAAAAAY BACK.... a good 11 years but i just dont know if i should talk to him....

 

Just remember that change happens with the first step, so if you don't want change, don't take that first step.

 

the thing with my long time friend that im talking about is that we were kinda a couple once... well for years, before i even met dan and really really good friends and he was a great guy. totally sweet and a good heart.

then i dont know what the fuck happened to him... he changed in ways that make me uneasy.....

but i still would like to talk to him but i dont even know if i like who he is anymore.

 

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hm yeah that is true and defiantly something to think about....

 

i miss a couple of people...though i miss my cousin the most right now...she's moving to kansas - from boston in less than 2 weeks. i went home this past weekend to say good bye...i'ma miss her though.

 

Where in Kansas?

 

holy toledo batman!!

that is exactly how i was feeling bout the someone i am missing.

 

ah, near Fort Riley

 

Manhattan, Ogden, Abilene, Junction City?

I live about 45 miles from Fort Riley.

 

manhattan

 

Missing someone you share a deep bond (haha i just typed bong) or a deep love with can hurt alot.
Another thing that hurts alot... being in love with someone who does not love you.

 

Is she going to school there? I have a very good friend that lives in Manhattan and his wife works at the hospital there.

I'm full of useless information.

 

no...well, she might go to school...but shes moving with her fiance down there, because he's being stationed at fort riley. she's never been down there, shes a city girl from boston, so i don't know how shes gonna deal. she needs to get a job, first. but she does want to continue her schooling.

 

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Well, Manhattan is a college town. So, there's constantly a party going on.

 

well, thats comforting...i thought it would be more like corn field and what not and she would have nothing to do...that means i get to go down and have some fun too...ahaha

 

Aggieville... You will learn this...

Not really much to do there BUT party.

The state capitol is about 45 minutes from there and another 20-30 gets you to Lawrence - KU-ville and more parties.

KC is about 2 hours away as well.

Not a bad location for KS.

 

well, thats good to know...atleast now i know she won't be sitting at home doing nothing, atleast theres things to do...