My mind I think is disorted, It's making me always feel hurted. I'm Jelous and in pain, Im' envious yet you call me vein. Why am I in the mirror? Because it takes time to get rid of the horror. I'm sorry for the ugly person I have been, I'm sorry for the things I've done to you and the situations I've put us in. I guess it's really true what you said, I am crazy and fucked up in the head. But don't blame nobody, It's all my own fault. I have always been stupid, never stood up for my self, got shit on all the time. And now I pay the price by falling apart. I can't stop my mind, it's always thinking, And not good things either. It makes me feel low and unequal. I'm amazed how powerful it can be, I'm not happy tho, of what it did to me. I hate the way I feel, I wish my life, or me, wasn't real.
I can't stop my mind, it's always thinking, And not good things either. It makes me feel low and unequal. I'm amazed how powerful it can be, I'm not happy tho, of what it did to me. I hate the way I feel, I wish my life, or me, wasn't real.[/QUOTE] hi there this is so full on... i remember hate,the feeling that got me so wound up i forgot me......i forgot how to live.... so in turn forgot all i could be....in life you seem to be very aware,so you can not be stupid... now look outside, look at the world mistakes are living...and even developing... to grow from them to move on in all areas is the change you so deserve.. keep writing see the change within your words which you lay on paper or screen.let it flow...... for the passion you hide peeps out between the pain and guilt which are only emotions.. remember yourself head and heart.together... lovenpeace from saff a little something for you if only i were free to drop emotions let all be gone but then i would not understand later when life has moved on...
