It cost me $20 a fucking gram, from the mall. That's what you get when you don't order online. Fuck. Anyway, I got it is all that matters. I'm about to put some in my bowl, light an incense cone and get to it. I'll post a report later.
I didn't get much open eye visuals (I didn't smoke a lot) but when I lay down and close my eyes, I really tripped out. I became just a consciousness, but not my own... not even a human consciousness. I was surrounded by flattened "minds" of other people connected to me by a huge network of negative energy, laughing at me and making unintelligible sounds and words, sometimes screaming that I'm nothing, I don't exist, things like that--that I'm not a part of the world and everything we are about is a joke. It wasn't a pleasant experience, but I'll be damned if I didn't learn anything. Next time, I'll be sure to get in a REALLY good mood before hand! It was scary. That was my first real psychedelic experience. Each person has their own life and mind inside of them. It's important to respect that.
Good to hear that you got some good stuff from a headshop, or whatever. I've seen a lot of bad "10x" from such places. Online is usually better, or at least cheaper. But... they too can be bad.
It's crazy, because I jolted back up out of this madness I described, and sat up at the side of my bed, just trying to clear my head. I couldn't. I was still tripping. I didn't know who I was. Nothing that I'm about even made sense. Hipforums? that's just dumb shit online. college? made by the establishment. This house? Shelter, and that's all. Everything got real basic and lacked reason. I knew only one thing: I'd probably straighten things out when everything was done. I wasn't stuck like that. Gotta keep the negative shit away next time, seriously. Maybe I just like being in control (which is hard with a dissociative hallucinagen eh?)
well, there's kind of no "control" with salvia ya just gotta let it do to you what it's supposed to because it's gonna do it whether you want it to or not you just gotta let it another thing is, the diff. with other hallucinogens normally you can tell yourself, "i did a drug, i'm just tripping" and you'll be cool or whatever but with salvia it's very hard to gather the fact that you've taken something which is why it probably freaks a lot of people out i mean...that's what happened to me but mine was different, because i blacked out and then woke up in another world (scary shit man, scary shit)
My trips arent all that weird, just a loss of reality. No hallucinations. I had some more last night and I spent most of my time looking for pieces of my pipe and lighter, and getting everything put away. Then I laid in bed and tried to trip. passed out again.
Oh damn, I remember the rest of my first trip, finally. (I must have non-standardized stuff, because results with the same amount have varied greatly!) I saw repeating patterns in consciousness, such that life and reality do NOT exist! “We” are mere pawns in the bigger picture! The bigger picture? Fake, something to be dreamt of by superior beings or something we dream of, ourselves? There were those huge things watching me, but I was just doing whatever I do in life, looking for things aimlessly, walking around, I saw myself on sort of a monitor.. I was tripping all over and going through cycles on the monitor. It was horrible, because I felt as if I’d never escape from the monotony of it all. Like I REALLY had discovered the truth behind the madness. I can envision the whole process in my head again, and it almost gives me chills. I saw that whole diagram of trip levels.. it was definitely what I’d call a level 4 trip, right on the brink of immaterialism such that the beings controlling everything were watching me shift out of focus and becoming nothingness. It is definitely very scary, because it never really hit that point, it wavered on the edge of 4 until the end when I started to come down. Salvia is a VERY powerful herb and now that I remember what I went through, I can spread the madness in the form of comedy, for this kind of shit isn’t usually taken heavily. After all, it is a psychoactive drug. It was just a freaky experience, that’s all. and YES, the local indoor mall carries salvia up to 20x in what I would call a "spirituality shop" mostly catered to pagans and other alternatives to the judeo-christian beliefs which I despise. Kind of a cool little place.
